Any of you who know me will know how novel this is: I have slept every night for the past week. I haven't been able to say that for about a year. My new Fuck You Cancer cocktail of pills beats radiation's ass and makes me feel human again. Or at least semi-human. Not sub-human at least.
The boy's mom and sister come in tomorrow.... Read More
Hi Beautiful
I had a good weekend with Josh. I know what you mean by feeling dizzy. When Josh and I are together I feel so warm and secure. But when he leaves it really sucks! I get so sad especially after we have had such a good weekend.
I can't believe that I did not get sick on Friday. The pitcher I chugged held 4 1/2 beers. I felt really full afterwards. My party was a huge success, we had probably 100+ people show up. We floated 2 kegs. It was fun, but I only knew like 10 people that showed up.
you could pretend if you want, but you would be doing so needlessly. see my latest comment in 's journal for a cryptic account of what's in peanut butter's brain today (besides Guinness).
I am sick. Again, It's hard not to get frustrated or consumed by self pity. It's strange how I control this body - make it walk and talk and jump and sit. But, I can't do a god damn thing to stop it from poisoning itself. I'm sick of being tired and tired of being sick.
disappointed again.
the sun came to strip the night sky, peel away her black.
aureate, it nudges apart her sleeping knees and spreads her open.
good morning. i haven't slept yet.
i am sweat soaked. ink stained. sleep starved. panting.
i haven't slept. i thought tonight (last night as it has become) would be the time that i finally figured her out.
my lover, lexeme.... Read More
I am not particularly intelligent by nature. But, I decided a few years ago that I was going to do this and I've worked fucking hard. I'm going to shamelessly brag because I am proud of myself. I have a 4.0 GPA & I got a scholarship to go to UCSB.
I was happy as hell & all that about the scholastic achievement, to an... Read More
congratulations. i'm in a similar boat and know how good accomplishment can be after the delay of gratification has seemed so far off for so long. enjoy.
At this 'right now', this exact second - the one with the acrid smoke leaking from my cigarette and 'that' look in your eyes- I think you are the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen.
Beautiful like tragedy, like loving things that die.
Your eyes are wider than they were at 4:09, open wider than they will be at 4:11.
At 4:10, 'right... Read More
The move went well. I'm a little disoriented so far. I left behind a boy that I had been dating for a year plus some. It was due time for that but a little heart breaking. I am still dealing with the after effects of all of this.