after talking to josh tonight, i dunno i think he said something kinda profound.
he misses me but it's not crippling to him because he's not dwelling.
maybe that's what i'm doing...sitting around dwelling and feeling sorry for myself because woe is me i didn't get what i wanted.
if it's meant to be then just let it be.
always so easy to say not...
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he misses me but it's not crippling to him because he's not dwelling.
maybe that's what i'm doing...sitting around dwelling and feeling sorry for myself because woe is me i didn't get what i wanted.
if it's meant to be then just let it be.
always so easy to say not...
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punknitemike:
i dont think you dwell on it, you just miss the dude. you should talk to him about one of you visiting the other, cause i think that would do wonders and at least give you a fixx. the long distance thing is NEVER an easy thing to do, trust me i know!
junnie:
Seriously dude the phone thing is killing me. I am actually waiting for Joah now. Otherwise......I am so jazzed to be on LA INK!!! I am totally freakin out with it!!!
thanks to all who commented on my b-day. that was really sweet.
without having josh here it just didn't feel quite right. coming home to having nothing here really hurt sometimes. i also barely got to talk to him b/c he's been so busy lately....i was hoping my b-day would have been filled with at least a little time with him, but i guess not....
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without having josh here it just didn't feel quite right. coming home to having nothing here really hurt sometimes. i also barely got to talk to him b/c he's been so busy lately....i was hoping my b-day would have been filled with at least a little time with him, but i guess not....
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cunninglinquist:
I missed your birthday, was not paying much attention to this site at all for the last week or so, have problems that are quite stressful. Happy Birthday.
wyldesage:
Dont worry about what you have been talking about, if I was in your position, I would be feeling exactly the same way.
so today we had the office olympics, and my team got the silver.
go light blue crew.
we rocked, and the ceo was on our team which was bomb.
i however am sunburned and tired as fuck.
so i also found out while i was there that my loving fantastic sweetheart of a man sent flowers to my office, gorgeous stargazer lillies, and roses and...
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go light blue crew.
we rocked, and the ceo was on our team which was bomb.
i however am sunburned and tired as fuck.
so i also found out while i was there that my loving fantastic sweetheart of a man sent flowers to my office, gorgeous stargazer lillies, and roses and...
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bromopar:
Happy birthday girl! Enjoy it all to peices.
caffeinemonkey:
Here comes your spankings...
Hope you have an amazing and special day!
Here comes your spankings...
Hope you have an amazing and special day!
eventhough i've NEVER gotten anything from my wishlist, here's another one just because it's my birthday in 2 days:
cass's wishlist
i swear i'm such a shop a holic it's not right.
i bought the cutest pair of prana yoga pants for our little work "olympic's" tomorrow because i need to be stylin. something is wrong with me, 60.00 yoga pants? damn girl.
but that's...
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cass's wishlist
i swear i'm such a shop a holic it's not right.
i bought the cutest pair of prana yoga pants for our little work "olympic's" tomorrow because i need to be stylin. something is wrong with me, 60.00 yoga pants? damn girl.
but that's...
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heatdude:
enjoy your gift my friend 
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
wyldesage:
Your gonna do a heck of a lot more for your bday than I did, but I was broke, so you can only do so much...enjoy your bday girl, live it up!!
been really busy this week, trying to figure out what i want for my birthday, and the whole "decision" of whether or not i want my mom's airline tickets that she needs to use up before august, and josh could either come here or i could go there.
problem is, it's not a matter of cash as to why we're not visiting, it's just time,...
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problem is, it's not a matter of cash as to why we're not visiting, it's just time,...
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wyldesage:
I think you should get out of California and go visit him, it would be good for you.
I got an online gift certificate for free bubble bath/shower gel from Sephora, I will probably go pick it up tomarrow.
I got an online gift certificate for free bubble bath/shower gel from Sephora, I will probably go pick it up tomarrow.
heatdude:
Happy Birthday to you...Now get on that plane girl.... 
so i was thinking today....
if i'm going to be stuck here alone, the least i can do is make the best of it or try.
yesterday i found myself getting really down about the situation. hey i've been through a lot in the last few months. moved from my favoritest place with my favoritest person....to being alone in a house with 3 people i...
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if i'm going to be stuck here alone, the least i can do is make the best of it or try.
yesterday i found myself getting really down about the situation. hey i've been through a lot in the last few months. moved from my favoritest place with my favoritest person....to being alone in a house with 3 people i...
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hotcurry:
I am on the same health kick right now. Once you get going everyday it's pretty easy to stick to it. Good luck to you!
junnie:
I know I feel like I've been the sad sack lately too. XOXO
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letranger:
it is upsetting but i still have hope that humans have the ability to do better in the long run.
faye:
You need to realize that a long distance relationship in a sense works the same as a regular one.
There are going to be times when you feel completely on track, and then there are going to be times where things really insanely distant and you just don't feel on the same page.
It's getting through those distant times that really matters, you really have to KNOW with yourself...not within your relationship but withing YOURSELF - that this is what you want, he is who you live for and who you love and that you don't want to be with anyone else in the world.
If that's true, then you have to push - push to see him, push for the daily calls, send him hot naked pictures and keep him interested - it's a lot of work but it can be so worth it.
There are going to be times when you feel completely on track, and then there are going to be times where things really insanely distant and you just don't feel on the same page.
It's getting through those distant times that really matters, you really have to KNOW with yourself...not within your relationship but withing YOURSELF - that this is what you want, he is who you live for and who you love and that you don't want to be with anyone else in the world.
If that's true, then you have to push - push to see him, push for the daily calls, send him hot naked pictures and keep him interested - it's a lot of work but it can be so worth it.
going to pick up the cute kid (niece) and go out to breakfast with my parents.
then she and i can hang out or go shopping or whatever.
she is the BEST thing for me to be around, always cheers me up and i don't spend NEARLY enough time with her.
i gotta get out of here.
gas first - gawd my car takes PREMIUM...
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then she and i can hang out or go shopping or whatever.
she is the BEST thing for me to be around, always cheers me up and i don't spend NEARLY enough time with her.
i gotta get out of here.
gas first - gawd my car takes PREMIUM...
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sorta getting things organized.
my tv keeps shutting itself off, weird.
:/
i talked to josh for 26 minutes tonight on the way to dinner.
unfortunately my plumeria plant got a bit jacked in the move, the movers decided to put the garage door down on top of it and knocked a full branch off of it.
this is a SENTIMENTAL damn plant.
josh bought...
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my tv keeps shutting itself off, weird.
:/
i talked to josh for 26 minutes tonight on the way to dinner.
unfortunately my plumeria plant got a bit jacked in the move, the movers decided to put the garage door down on top of it and knocked a full branch off of it.
this is a SENTIMENTAL damn plant.
josh bought...
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lymphae:
TV shutting off? You have poltergeists!! 
this room is a freaking disaster area.
everything fit in the closet and the new room.
woo hoo.
makes me miss josh so fucking much, this is a big change for me.
i hate it.
i hate being without him ya know.
i know he feels the same way.
i can't figure out where to put anything.
reassembling my computer (this is my laptop) is...
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everything fit in the closet and the new room.
woo hoo.
makes me miss josh so fucking much, this is a big change for me.
i hate it.
i hate being without him ya know.
i know he feels the same way.
i can't figure out where to put anything.
reassembling my computer (this is my laptop) is...
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caffeinemonkey:
Congratulation on finishing the move. It may take you a while to acclimate to the change but I am sure it will be a great place
And don't be too hard on your friend. She may not have understood how much you needed her.
Have a wonderful weekend.
And don't be too hard on your friend. She may not have understood how much you needed her.
Have a wonderful weekend.
bromopar:
Moving sucks, I always feel like I'm leaving something behind and that's after moving a total sixteen times over the course of my life. Two of those moves were from one coast to the next.
I know you miss him hun but you still love, he still loves you and you'll always have that.
Yeah best friends sometimes aren't. Fuck em.
I know you miss him hun but you still love, he still loves you and you'll always have that.
Yeah best friends sometimes aren't. Fuck em.
last night in the old apartment, why is it so hot in here.
ugh
anyhow shower, then laying down to watch tv, and fall asleep.
the last night here.
weird feeling.
i'm fine but it's just weird.
miss josh, what else is new right?
next blog, from the new room.
cheers
me
ugh
anyhow shower, then laying down to watch tv, and fall asleep.
the last night here.
weird feeling.
i'm fine but it's just weird.
miss josh, what else is new right?
next blog, from the new room.
cheers
me
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elvis:
awwwwww *hugssss*
caffeinemonkey:
Good luck with the movie
You have had a lot of change all at once.
You have had a lot of change all at once.
going to get the uhaul tonite, tomorrow morning's the big move.
fucking finally ic an get it over with and into the new place.
things i'll miss about this apartment:
1. it was josh and my place - although it does suck to come back here every night and miss him. i'll miss him wherever i am but i won't know any different there.
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fucking finally ic an get it over with and into the new place.
things i'll miss about this apartment:
1. it was josh and my place - although it does suck to come back here every night and miss him. i'll miss him wherever i am but i won't know any different there.
2....
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