so i was thinking today....
if i'm going to be stuck here alone, the least i can do is make the best of it or try.
yesterday i found myself getting really down about the situation. hey i've been through a lot in the last few months. moved from my favoritest place with my favoritest person....to being alone in a house with 3 people i don't know. feels really lonely.
everything reminds me of josh...and i just miss him and want a kiss so badly i'd do anything.
we all know my sad sappy ways, and sometimes it is TOTALLY okay to have a bad one. i allow myself these things. i need to stop having them on sundays because i always end up with puffy eyes on mondays. sucks for work.
also i have to try to be POSITIVE when i talk to him, i can't always be a sad sack. it makes him feel like shit and depresses him and he needs me to be supportive of him right now with his work and crazy schedule and lack of all free time, and then when he does have it he wants to spend it with me. i can't make that be a downer...it's an injustice to myself and to him. bitchy attitudes aren't going to change the situation. neither is crying about shit i can't change.
yesterday i went and bought brown rice, and stir fry veggies. tomorrow i will grab some salmon. i am going to start eating a fairly normalized dinner of brown rice, veggies and salmon, at least 3 nights a week. maybe not salmon every night but most. i want to cut out the extra sugar (hard to do at work being a buyer, and surrounded by goodies, but i'll try)....also i have some twizzlers here that need to get eaten first, but you get the idea here.
i need to take care of me.
i need to take my vitamins
i need to walk.
i need to get dressed up, take sexy pics fo the man, and feel beautiful.
i need to reinvest some time in taking care of myself.
either that or i'll just sit here and fester, and what good is that?
eating at home is cheap and i can control the crap.
i'm not DIETING (Gads no) i'm just eating smart for me.
we'll see how it goes. no pressure.
i normally eat a lot of fish on weds and thurs, so i might get a mexican night or whatever, and then weekends are a free for all but normally when i start doing this eating healthy thing i get into a routine, and i don't really want crap. we'll see.
i'll know i'm doing good when my clothes don't fit.
anyhow happy monday to all and a good week.
if i'm going to be stuck here alone, the least i can do is make the best of it or try.
yesterday i found myself getting really down about the situation. hey i've been through a lot in the last few months. moved from my favoritest place with my favoritest person....to being alone in a house with 3 people i don't know. feels really lonely.
everything reminds me of josh...and i just miss him and want a kiss so badly i'd do anything.
we all know my sad sappy ways, and sometimes it is TOTALLY okay to have a bad one. i allow myself these things. i need to stop having them on sundays because i always end up with puffy eyes on mondays. sucks for work.
also i have to try to be POSITIVE when i talk to him, i can't always be a sad sack. it makes him feel like shit and depresses him and he needs me to be supportive of him right now with his work and crazy schedule and lack of all free time, and then when he does have it he wants to spend it with me. i can't make that be a downer...it's an injustice to myself and to him. bitchy attitudes aren't going to change the situation. neither is crying about shit i can't change.
yesterday i went and bought brown rice, and stir fry veggies. tomorrow i will grab some salmon. i am going to start eating a fairly normalized dinner of brown rice, veggies and salmon, at least 3 nights a week. maybe not salmon every night but most. i want to cut out the extra sugar (hard to do at work being a buyer, and surrounded by goodies, but i'll try)....also i have some twizzlers here that need to get eaten first, but you get the idea here.
i need to take care of me.
i need to take my vitamins
i need to walk.
i need to get dressed up, take sexy pics fo the man, and feel beautiful.
i need to reinvest some time in taking care of myself.
either that or i'll just sit here and fester, and what good is that?
eating at home is cheap and i can control the crap.
i'm not DIETING (Gads no) i'm just eating smart for me.
we'll see how it goes. no pressure.
i normally eat a lot of fish on weds and thurs, so i might get a mexican night or whatever, and then weekends are a free for all but normally when i start doing this eating healthy thing i get into a routine, and i don't really want crap. we'll see.
i'll know i'm doing good when my clothes don't fit.
anyhow happy monday to all and a good week.
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hotcurry:
I am on the same health kick right now. Once you get going everyday it's pretty easy to stick to it. Good luck to you!
junnie:
I know I feel like I've been the sad sack lately too. XOXO
