going to get the uhaul tonite, tomorrow morning's the big move.
fucking finally ic an get it over with and into the new place.
things i'll miss about this apartment:
1. it was josh and my place - although it does suck to come back here every night and miss him. i'll miss him wherever i am but i won't know any different there.
2. the space - nice big fat 1 bdr with a big patio on the beach. yeah spoiled. when we first me he came out and just rented this place, made it happen, took care of everything and asked me to come live with him. the shit i would do now to get back to that place in our lives, before all the bullshit, the lies, the crap and the indecision.
3. bathtub - it's a place of sanctuary and also a really intimate place for josh and i as he'd come and sit on the toilet (ha) and hang out while i took a lush bath with bath bombs and bubble bars and yummy candles and stuff. fucking rawked. also sometimes he'd scrub my back, and occasionally he'd salt scrub my feet. oh hells yes those were the days. unfortunately my new apt. doesn't have a bathtub :/ oh well it's temporary.
4. my waterbed - not sure if i am going to re-erect the water bed or store it and get an aerobed just temporarily as it's just a temporary stop in the path of life. the water bed is a commitment ya know? not sure any adivce?
5. the parking spot - yeah got a nice covered parking spot, security garage, new place i'm gonna street park but it's residential so it's ok.
6. the beach. you walk out my door and down some steps and there's the beach, the ocean. i can see redondo harbor from where i pull my car into the garage, and i'm spoiled on that big time.
7. the pier - we used to walk to the pier, and there are a bunch of bars, and restaurants and all that jazz. i'll miss doing that bigtime.
tonight i gotta break down the computer, and the tv and dvd and such. should be fun. my friend lisa is coming over so she can help, i'm not too mechanical, such a GIRL.
josh worked until 2am last night, he sent me a text at 2am his time saying he was going to bed, dead and he loved me. i swear that guy is a fucking SAINT. i was telling my mom that on the phone last night, whilst she called me crying about how her life is so hard and all this (drunk might i add) because my dad's father (who is turning 90 tomorrow) is driving her crazy b/c my dad's over there taking care of him all the time, she hates his brother (my uncle) and she just won't let anything go in life. she's one of those people who's totally pissed off at the world, and a grudge holder. i told her, she needs to fuckin seriously chill out and let shit go. but anyhow that convo took until after midnight, then off to sleep and off to work today. i'm tired. it's been a long week for me many hours, and a lot of work. i feel bad about not working tomorrow, b/c there's a lot to do but i'll maybe go in this weekend and take care of some prices, ugh.
i wish i could just fly to ohio and see my honey. this would be pointless because he's so fucking busy with work you realize. i haven't even asked him about visiting yet, because he's had like 2 days off in the past month. it'll lighten up at some point :/
when packing stuff, i found the valentine's day card from like 2 years ago.
i cherish it.
i don't always tell you
that the joy you bring
means more to me than anything
i don't always tell you
that the love you give
brightens every day i live
i don't always tell you
what's in my heart
but you are
the most important part
of all my cherished hopes plans and dreams
love josh
a new beginning....Big Kisses!
fucking eh i'd do anything for 1 kiss
anyhow enough babbling.
cheers,
X0x0
fucking finally ic an get it over with and into the new place.
things i'll miss about this apartment:
1. it was josh and my place - although it does suck to come back here every night and miss him. i'll miss him wherever i am but i won't know any different there.
2. the space - nice big fat 1 bdr with a big patio on the beach. yeah spoiled. when we first me he came out and just rented this place, made it happen, took care of everything and asked me to come live with him. the shit i would do now to get back to that place in our lives, before all the bullshit, the lies, the crap and the indecision.
3. bathtub - it's a place of sanctuary and also a really intimate place for josh and i as he'd come and sit on the toilet (ha) and hang out while i took a lush bath with bath bombs and bubble bars and yummy candles and stuff. fucking rawked. also sometimes he'd scrub my back, and occasionally he'd salt scrub my feet. oh hells yes those were the days. unfortunately my new apt. doesn't have a bathtub :/ oh well it's temporary.
4. my waterbed - not sure if i am going to re-erect the water bed or store it and get an aerobed just temporarily as it's just a temporary stop in the path of life. the water bed is a commitment ya know? not sure any adivce?
5. the parking spot - yeah got a nice covered parking spot, security garage, new place i'm gonna street park but it's residential so it's ok.
6. the beach. you walk out my door and down some steps and there's the beach, the ocean. i can see redondo harbor from where i pull my car into the garage, and i'm spoiled on that big time.
7. the pier - we used to walk to the pier, and there are a bunch of bars, and restaurants and all that jazz. i'll miss doing that bigtime.
tonight i gotta break down the computer, and the tv and dvd and such. should be fun. my friend lisa is coming over so she can help, i'm not too mechanical, such a GIRL.
josh worked until 2am last night, he sent me a text at 2am his time saying he was going to bed, dead and he loved me. i swear that guy is a fucking SAINT. i was telling my mom that on the phone last night, whilst she called me crying about how her life is so hard and all this (drunk might i add) because my dad's father (who is turning 90 tomorrow) is driving her crazy b/c my dad's over there taking care of him all the time, she hates his brother (my uncle) and she just won't let anything go in life. she's one of those people who's totally pissed off at the world, and a grudge holder. i told her, she needs to fuckin seriously chill out and let shit go. but anyhow that convo took until after midnight, then off to sleep and off to work today. i'm tired. it's been a long week for me many hours, and a lot of work. i feel bad about not working tomorrow, b/c there's a lot to do but i'll maybe go in this weekend and take care of some prices, ugh.
i wish i could just fly to ohio and see my honey. this would be pointless because he's so fucking busy with work you realize. i haven't even asked him about visiting yet, because he's had like 2 days off in the past month. it'll lighten up at some point :/
when packing stuff, i found the valentine's day card from like 2 years ago.
i cherish it.
i don't always tell you
that the joy you bring
means more to me than anything
i don't always tell you
that the love you give
brightens every day i live
i don't always tell you
what's in my heart
but you are
the most important part
of all my cherished hopes plans and dreams
love josh
a new beginning....Big Kisses!
fucking eh i'd do anything for 1 kiss
anyhow enough babbling.
cheers,
X0x0
