Wow...what is this new feeling I have? I woke up this morning and listened to a few mixed cd's, just thinking about everything. The sunlight pried my eyes open and again I woke up in my bed completely alone, but realized the long nights alone have been good to me, forging me into a newer, stronger woman. The pain, the angst, the clenching feeling in...
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"Wow, Claudia is a lot hotter than i'll ever be." -Angelina Jolie
Ok, Shrek is the best movie ever made. Yeah man, it's funny on like 5 different levels. And I love that the princess turns into an ogre too! How sweet.
Hopefully i'll find my ogre any day now! (?) Or not.
I am at my friends' house and they cooked up an exceptional...
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Ok, Shrek is the best movie ever made. Yeah man, it's funny on like 5 different levels. And I love that the princess turns into an ogre too! How sweet.
Hopefully i'll find my ogre any day now! (?) Or not.
I am at my friends' house and they cooked up an exceptional...
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toreena:
Amelie was the prettiest movie I've seen in a long, long time.
And man, that's one of my fantasies too. The one girl I've slept with was a fucking psycho.
And man, that's one of my fantasies too. The one girl I've slept with was a fucking psycho.
bionicfemme:
You too? Dammit, what's with this epidemic? You are pretty cute too, so I don't understand what's up with us getting raging psychos as our first lovers.
I just console myself by thinking "At least I can't make the same mistake twice now." She may have "taken" my innocence but I have gained wisdom and experience from it...sort of like eating the fruit of the knowledge good and evil. My eyes are open now. Yours are too.
I just console myself by thinking "At least I can't make the same mistake twice now." She may have "taken" my innocence but I have gained wisdom and experience from it...sort of like eating the fruit of the knowledge good and evil. My eyes are open now. Yours are too.
Um...ok, will somebody please come to SF and protect my from my psychotic ex girlfriend? She is acting really weird and it's scaring me.
So fine, i'll explain why I wanted to disappear completely. That day when we got in that huge blow out, she all of a sudden started talking in the third person about herself like "she likes to hurt you because she...
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So fine, i'll explain why I wanted to disappear completely. That day when we got in that huge blow out, she all of a sudden started talking in the third person about herself like "she likes to hurt you because she...
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emperor_tane:
She seems normal to me, but then again I am weird myself. Hmm, I need a woman like your exgirlfriend in my life. I think I would like that kind of woman.
I don't speak about myself in the third person, but I have a Tane complex. Which means I am prone to acting, walking, talking, and thinking as he would.
Yes, I agree call the police if she does come near you. Restraining orders are good, or you could try to talk to her and be friends..
Tane
I don't speak about myself in the third person, but I have a Tane complex. Which means I am prone to acting, walking, talking, and thinking as he would.
Yes, I agree call the police if she does come near you. Restraining orders are good, or you could try to talk to her and be friends..
Tane
requiem:
I would have offered you protection and a place to hid out and even a glass of wine to calm your nerves. But now that I know you live in SF but haven't been coming to Thursday Night Curry, I'm not sure I can help...
Seriously, though, if it's to the point of maybe needing to call the cops, I know I speak for the entire SF SG gang when I say if you need anything anytime, every one of us is ready to help...
Seriously, though, if it's to the point of maybe needing to call the cops, I know I speak for the entire SF SG gang when I say if you need anything anytime, every one of us is ready to help...
Metropolis was cool. The music was good and I bought a t-shirt that just says "Horny" on it. I was accosted by many strange men on E and they kept trying to hug me. Ah, they just want to get next to the twins. You know any time a guy just innocently wants a "hug", he just wants to squeeze himself against your chest. One...
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bionicfemme:
Heehee...you ladies are awesome, you make me all silly pants. I'm seriously thinking about it, but i'm still a little bit shy about it. Maybe when Claudia comes to town i'll ask her all about what its like to be a suicidegirl and that will convince me to do it.
bionicfemme:
Oh yeah, I still don't know how and why I hooked up with that heartless bitch with a hairy back and one inverted nipple lol. Note to self: if you are going to get played out, at least make sure you're cheated on by someone lacking long, managable back hair.
Whooaaaaa i'm gonna have three heart attacks on a stick. Of joy. Metropolis?? Possible chocolate and tea with uberwoman Claudia?? This is really just too much; I feel like I have won a lifetime supply of fun.
Hell's yeah man. I'm off to Metropolis to dance my pants off.
AWWWWWW YEAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! GOOOOOOOD TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMES!!!!!!!!!!!
Hell's yeah man. I'm off to Metropolis to dance my pants off.
AWWWWWW YEAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! GOOOOOOOD TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMES!!!!!!!!!!!
hybrid_:
yous lucky!
Dammit...Metropolis is today, and I can find nobody to go with...this really really blows. If any SG's are going, tell me! I guess if all else fails I could just go to my friends' b-day party, but I really want to go see the crystal method. Ah well. Ah for fuck's sakes!
In case you haven't noticed, I like swearing a lot...I first picked up...
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In case you haven't noticed, I like swearing a lot...I first picked up...
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claudia:
So, I will be in San Fran on Thursday and Friday, so we should go have chocolate and tea at castro's.
jamy:
If the key to suffering were desire, then that would imply a desire to go through the door and suffer. We don't desire to suffer, but be suffer because we desire.
On another note: #2 might come true 4 u!
On another note: #2 might come true 4 u!
Ok, I refuse to let such a bitter, angry journal entry stay on the page any longer. All this talk of N is boring even to me, and i'm writing it. Instead, I will invent specific "plans" to fix my life. These are including, but not limited to:
1. Do nude modeling to liberate self
2. Find nice girl, take her to chocolate shop on...
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1. Do nude modeling to liberate self
2. Find nice girl, take her to chocolate shop on...
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jamy:
You dont need to 'try' you already have the substance you need. Lets examine your points.
1) being nude will not liberate yourself. Unfortunately, it isnt that easy. In fact, you should be careful about being nude to liberate yourself because it may have the opposite effect as others have noted.
2) Very good. Now you are talking!
3) This is always a good idea. My friend in Tokyo is currently trying to convince me to do the same.
4) Financial assistance will plague you unless you let go. If you have this problem then you must consider yourself independent from this moment onwards. Otherwise you will lose years to the very idea. Move to Jamaica and dont tell anyone if necessary.
5) You father will never understand anyway. But do it just to clear that point. Some of my best friends are gay, but the best of these friends are no longer burdened by this kind of situation.
6) Forget world domination. Even though you might be an aries = asskicker, this is not something you should aspire to, unless your idea of world domination is domination of yourself.
7) HA! I cant help you with this one, but let me know if you are successful. My bet is that youll turn 21 before you make any headway on this idea ;-)
8) If you have an animal, aspire to its approach to life.
9) Do that now. Dont dilli dalli. When you have finished, if it is worth it, recommend it to someone like myself.
10) You dont need hormone pills to kick ass you are, after all, an aries. She doesnt need to be gay for you to rescue her. She advise her on the right kind of partner that she would benefit from
Dont follow a list. Listen to yourself, for no one knows you like you do.
1) being nude will not liberate yourself. Unfortunately, it isnt that easy. In fact, you should be careful about being nude to liberate yourself because it may have the opposite effect as others have noted.
2) Very good. Now you are talking!
3) This is always a good idea. My friend in Tokyo is currently trying to convince me to do the same.
4) Financial assistance will plague you unless you let go. If you have this problem then you must consider yourself independent from this moment onwards. Otherwise you will lose years to the very idea. Move to Jamaica and dont tell anyone if necessary.
5) You father will never understand anyway. But do it just to clear that point. Some of my best friends are gay, but the best of these friends are no longer burdened by this kind of situation.
6) Forget world domination. Even though you might be an aries = asskicker, this is not something you should aspire to, unless your idea of world domination is domination of yourself.
7) HA! I cant help you with this one, but let me know if you are successful. My bet is that youll turn 21 before you make any headway on this idea ;-)
8) If you have an animal, aspire to its approach to life.
9) Do that now. Dont dilli dalli. When you have finished, if it is worth it, recommend it to someone like myself.
10) You dont need hormone pills to kick ass you are, after all, an aries. She doesnt need to be gay for you to rescue her. She advise her on the right kind of partner that she would benefit from
Dont follow a list. Listen to yourself, for no one knows you like you do.
No more bitterness...I just want a slurpee.
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jamy:
that was suposed to read: '... let her GO bio...'
bionicfemme:
Seriously...i'm trying...it would be so much easier if she didn't keep calling me or writing me (or hacking into my computer).
I'm not going to waste my time explaining the situation, but my ex is really sick in the head. I'm not kidding. She's a psycho. A lot of my friends think she is mentally ill along with being a commonplace player. Like a sociopath. I now believe this, too.
I will not go into detail, but i'm taking the suggestion of that one member that...
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tatum:
Lord hun, I'm so sorry that you had to go though that! I don't understand people sometimes and I have certainly come in contact with my share of psychos but not to the extent of erasing myself completely from them! Well if you ever need anyone new to talk to, I'm online all the time! Just a thought, I know I always appreciate spilling it all out on a new mind. Hope things get better for you!!
Wow...I am still locked in battle with my ex. Now, we're having an online email war, but she never comes close to matching my wit...my favorite slam so far?
How many women like you does it take to screw in a light bulb? None; you're too busy screwing other women.
My best friend thinks this is hilarious.
HahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I have gone completely insane. The only...
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How many women like you does it take to screw in a light bulb? None; you're too busy screwing other women.
My best friend thinks this is hilarious.
HahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I have gone completely insane. The only...
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vervain______:
i'm an aries too, and all i can say is change your email address and end all that shit, unless there is something in you that wants to keep it going, which i can identify with, but...
bionicfemme:
!!!!! Claudia sent me a comment!!??? Whoo hoo! It's just like when I was 16 with 41 pictures up of posh spice on my wall and all I wanted to do is give her a flower. Actually, this is nothing like that. This is much better.
**Blushing because i'm an Asian schoolgirl** Thank you for your compliment, Claudia. It's made my life approx. 10,000% better. Those are actual statistics.
A girl flaked on you??? How could that possibly be? I don't understand how that could happen. You're the hottest girl in the world AND apparently the smartest. Her loss. That's sweet that Lane hung out with you. I would have never flaked on you; I would have showed up and brought you rhinestone tiara from Haight Street as The Empress of the World Award.
So you want to be a superhero too? What is your name and your powers? I am the Bionic Femme, with the powers of incredulous amounts of adrenaline and the sultry power of techno-erotica (I karate chop people while dancing in a sexy manner to house music.)
**Blushing because i'm an Asian schoolgirl** Thank you for your compliment, Claudia. It's made my life approx. 10,000% better. Those are actual statistics.
A girl flaked on you??? How could that possibly be? I don't understand how that could happen. You're the hottest girl in the world AND apparently the smartest. Her loss. That's sweet that Lane hung out with you. I would have never flaked on you; I would have showed up and brought you rhinestone tiara from Haight Street as The Empress of the World Award.
So you want to be a superhero too? What is your name and your powers? I am the Bionic Femme, with the powers of incredulous amounts of adrenaline and the sultry power of techno-erotica (I karate chop people while dancing in a sexy manner to house music.)
Wow...I am still locked in battle with my ex. Now, we're having an online email war, but she never comes close to matching my wit...my favorite slam so far?
How many women like you does it take to screw in a light bulb? None; you're too busy screwing other women.
My best friend thinks this is hilarious.
HahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I have gone completely insane. The only...
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How many women like you does it take to screw in a light bulb? None; you're too busy screwing other women.
My best friend thinks this is hilarious.
HahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I have gone completely insane. The only...
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Daydreams of future times with my would-be girl #8,003:
And in this one, i'm reclining in a black bean bag in a dimly lit cafe with you running your fingers through my hair. I sip my mocha, turning slightly so I can see all of your fairness in our dimly lit reverie. I trace my fingers along the outlines of your face, telling you what...
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And in this one, i'm reclining in a black bean bag in a dimly lit cafe with you running your fingers through my hair. I sip my mocha, turning slightly so I can see all of your fairness in our dimly lit reverie. I trace my fingers along the outlines of your face, telling you what...
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jamy:
ha! It's not me whose gotta simma down girl, It's all the SG chicks that are gonna storm you after talking like that!
bionicfemme:
**Blushing** that would be great...especially if I could woo Claudia with my words. God, i'd write her poetry every day for the rest of my life!
you will find your goddess and may she worship you with the same poeticism and joy of life.
: )
It makes me smile knowing that this little ritual of posting in your journal every night has made you feel better! Thank you for saying those sweet things to me too!