Can't explain the feeling I feel...if I was a mother and my only son had died and then I saw a boy identical to him walking down the street, that would be the only way I could describe this emotion.
She gave me a yellow rose...yellow for friendship. And she didn't try to hit on me, which was good. She has definitely grown up. Before,...
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She gave me a yellow rose...yellow for friendship. And she didn't try to hit on me, which was good. She has definitely grown up. Before,...
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Shit. Natalie's in my neighborhood. We're going to have lunch.
I'm taking out my brown contacts and putting in my green ones.
That's because when we broke up, I bought green contacts so I wouldn't miss the color of her eyes, I could just look in the mirror.
I'm taking out my brown contacts and putting in my green ones.
That's because when we broke up, I bought green contacts so I wouldn't miss the color of her eyes, I could just look in the mirror.
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bionicfemme:
Ok...got my shit together...heading towards the restaurant with ATR's "Into the Death" blaring madly on my walkman...
dia:
I've been trying to reach you and "the wireless pcs customer you have called is not available"...
Something very bad happened today and I am quite upset... too upset to leave the confines of my house, I think. A concert is inconceivable at present. Okay, got your voice mail... think it's your answering machine actually. Left msg.
Something very bad happened today and I am quite upset... too upset to leave the confines of my house, I think. A concert is inconceivable at present. Okay, got your voice mail... think it's your answering machine actually. Left msg.
Huzzzah!!!! Today shall be a day of rampant zaniness with Dia, mistress o' doooooooom! We'll laugh, we'll cry, we'll eat crepes and punch people!
And Flamedaddy: Thank you for your response. You don't have to be a lesbian to understand what i'm going through. I think what you described is exactly like how I feel. In fact, I think lesbians have more in common with...
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And Flamedaddy: Thank you for your response. You don't have to be a lesbian to understand what i'm going through. I think what you described is exactly like how I feel. In fact, I think lesbians have more in common with...
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mistersatan:
Hey, no one knows the het guy's plight better than lesbians...
mistersatan:
BTW- I just remembered the "who was the sexyest profile pic" thread...
You're welcome. And thanks again for being so damn HOTT!!!
You're welcome. And thanks again for being so damn HOTT!!!
Reflecting tonight...trying to get out of the whiny, funky mood i've been in.
And I do apologize for that. The past month (but this week in particular) has been nothing but bitchfighting, pissing and moaning.
Just trying to lie down and chill tonight. I'm thinking of the places i've lived in, the women I have been and the women I have loved...various points in my...
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And I do apologize for that. The past month (but this week in particular) has been nothing but bitchfighting, pissing and moaning.
Just trying to lie down and chill tonight. I'm thinking of the places i've lived in, the women I have been and the women I have loved...various points in my...
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mistersatan:
Are you sure that's such a good idea? I mean, Oip might look good like that, but as for me... I dunno, Femme... 
Tomorrow, you'll see a different woman.
I make many plots of reconstruction, but this time it's for real.
And I will be seeing Dia tomorrow too, so whee!
I make many plots of reconstruction, but this time it's for real.
And I will be seeing Dia tomorrow too, so whee!
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tatum:
Have fun with Dia!! 
How lucky are you, I really need to move over to the west coast
How lucky are you, I really need to move over to the west coast 
oipthestampede:
Most people would say...I'm jealous, you get to hang out with Dia. I say....Dia is one lucky bitch!
To Dia: I *heart* you
To Dia: I *heart* you
Plans for reconstruction:
Go to hairdresser, buzz hair very closely to head, allow side sections and bangs to remain long, dye whole front of head purple or red
Buy new Atari teenage riot CD that I am excited about
Replay my freshly made "Music to psychostrip by" mixtape to think only Diva thoughts, listen to it in sleep for subliminal messages
Punch things
Create more...
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Go to hairdresser, buzz hair very closely to head, allow side sections and bangs to remain long, dye whole front of head purple or red
Buy new Atari teenage riot CD that I am excited about
Replay my freshly made "Music to psychostrip by" mixtape to think only Diva thoughts, listen to it in sleep for subliminal messages
Punch things
Create more...
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quijybo:
i think a deep purple would look wonderful with your skin tone.
i've done both red and purple.
i think my fav red was "candy apple red" by special effects. just to give you some recommendations...
i've done both red and purple.
i think my fav red was "candy apple red" by special effects. just to give you some recommendations...
volkov:
and underneat all the scaffolding and new paint and women in hardhats and daisy duke construction shorts and tool belts will still be one of the most amazing people I know. :-D
I wish I could say, somehow, that everything is OK, but it is not. To be blunt, it is not.
Why do your kisses haunt me in the same way the memories of child suicide bombers haunt Vietnam vets in their sleep? Not a day goes by that I don't remember the voice I heard on the phone tonight and I wish to God I...
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Why do your kisses haunt me in the same way the memories of child suicide bombers haunt Vietnam vets in their sleep? Not a day goes by that I don't remember the voice I heard on the phone tonight and I wish to God I...
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bionicfemme:
Yes.
mistersatan:
IM me sometime- we'll talk.
So I talked to her and...I am glad that I called. We had a good long 3 hour or so conversation whereby we straightened everything out. I feel at peace now, so does she. I don't hate her anymore. She is still with her first girlfriend, Heather, who she's been on and off with for a 3 1/2 years. She apologized for everything she'd ever...
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bionicfemme:
It's the last straw. It's the FUCKING last straw.
Things will change, I don't know how or why yet, but things will change. They have to. I can't take this amount of bullshit anymore.
I can't stand not having at least a shred of hope I might meet someone new.
I'm not lying when I say I LITERALLY feel there is a 0% chance I can meet a girl to date long term at this point. If I didn't know every dyke in Cali, it would be a different story.
Things will change, I don't know how or why yet, but things will change. They have to. I can't take this amount of bullshit anymore.
I can't stand not having at least a shred of hope I might meet someone new.
I'm not lying when I say I LITERALLY feel there is a 0% chance I can meet a girl to date long term at this point. If I didn't know every dyke in Cali, it would be a different story.
bionicfemme:
Ok, so Solisis and I are now in this vicious bitchfight whereby we are making fun of each other's moms, I feel 5000% better now.
Hahaha....called Natalie tonight and she will call me back later, as she is out with her mother.
Why? I don't know why. I think we should talk. I'm tired of running on rage. I always trick myself into thinking that rage is a good thing, that if I get frenzied enough and kick open X amount of doors that the adrenaline will rush to my...
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Why? I don't know why. I think we should talk. I'm tired of running on rage. I always trick myself into thinking that rage is a good thing, that if I get frenzied enough and kick open X amount of doors that the adrenaline will rush to my...
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edea:
i'll talk games with ya anytime. i don't know any girl-gamers either .
to answer your question:
who i think the hottest FF girl is?
one clue, look at my name
actually they're all hot! i especially dig Lulu's style.
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to answer your question:
who i think the hottest FF girl is?
one clue, look at my name
actually they're all hot! i especially dig Lulu's style.
crazydasaint:
The first girl I ever fell in love to actually return my affections... it ended rough. Not that we fought or anything. In fact we never fought. We never really talked about the big stuff... so I had no idea what was going through her head until she dumped me with no warning. Real rough.
I hated her for a week, vowed I'd never speak to her again... but I needed to know.
I totally understand what you mean.
I hated her for a week, vowed I'd never speak to her again... but I needed to know.
I totally understand what you mean.
Went to the hospital...stayed there for most of the day. Apparently I was severly dehydrated. Am doped up on heavy amounts of vicodin. A friend tried to make me tell a story so I could maintain consciousness and I could not pronounce the word "architechture" or "jurisdiction" but perhaps I am not spelling those things right either...
Was attended to by two very pretty nurses...hallelujah!...
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Was attended to by two very pretty nurses...hallelujah!...
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morgan:
Ooooh...feel better. I'd make you chicken soup, too, if i were there.
Thank you for the post on my journal. I think that you are one of the coolest people on SG, your support means a lot to me.
Thank you for the post on my journal. I think that you are one of the coolest people on SG, your support means a lot to me.
volkov:
get better soon, okaly dokaly?
uber cool superheroines such as yourself don't get many sickdays. maybe you should unionize!
hope you feel 1,540,826% better!
*careful, don't get me sick...ha j/k, squeeeeeeeze hugs*
V
uber cool superheroines such as yourself don't get many sickdays. maybe you should unionize!
hope you feel 1,540,826% better!
*careful, don't get me sick...ha j/k, squeeeeeeeze hugs*
V
Aye carumba....fever's so bad i'm sweating through my clothes...I think I should go to the hospital or something, even though I just went there the other frickin' day!
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oipthestampede:
That's not a fever...it is my LATINO HEAT!
fred:
Damn girl you best be taking care of yourself.
You might need some antibiotics or something.
You might need some antibiotics or something.
So my friend is talking smack about me in her online journal again. Hooray! I love people that flake out when you need them and proceed to talk mass amounts of shit because they can't stand their own fragility, don't you?
We got into an argument the other day because i'm tired of her fairy land disillusionment. She thinks the world is a wonderful, pleasantville-esque...
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We got into an argument the other day because i'm tired of her fairy land disillusionment. She thinks the world is a wonderful, pleasantville-esque...
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fillerbunny:
Damn if she thinks you're a slut, I must be the fucking antichrist of whoredom.....
Damn if she thinks you're a slut, I must be the fucking antichrist of whoredom.....
nouvelle:
OMG....i grew up with those same brainwashed church ideas and.. jessica simpsons dad was my youth minister (instigater of brainwashing). the simpson family are sell outs of the worst kind...they sold out on jesus. he he he
Bi, that was a beautifully told story. It had me captivated.
Remember, it's not the ending yet. You've built enough good karma to have happiness for 50 years once it finally hits ya. And as for her, she get her comin ups.
You're wonderful.