60ftqueenie

you can all contact me at

princessmistress@bigpond.com

I'll give you a little explanation... in the days I've had off... I've come to realise that I was getting alot of unwated attention and slimy comments about my profession.... but its all my fault for having it listed it In the 18 months I've been doing it professionally I've been 'coming out of the closet' as it were... saying what I do for a living says alot about me as a person and SG was one of the first forums I deceided to be upfront and honest about it... I lie to my family.. I lie to alot of my friends about what I do... Ive been ostracized by some of my 'friends' and sometimes I feel downright dirty for being who I am because of societys misconceptions... and its not fair... I'm not hurting anyone... (well all jokes aside)

so yeah I think I need to 'kill' carlottadeville and come back as someone alot more anonymous.... all those female members I was ranting about being sluts the other day have created this almost cyber rape culture where they post pornographic photos of themselves and try and get as many porno comments as possible... I never wanted that... but I seem to attract them because I list my profession as a sex worker... doesnt even matter that I dont have sex with my clients...

Anyway feeling attacked and vunerable right now... I dont know how to 'out' myself anymore and I dont know if I should... lying weighs down my heart and its been a continual struggle for me this past 18 months... how would you all feel if you had to live this lie of a life for your family and some friends but have something beautiful that you can never share... and when you finally think you found a culture that would accept you and never judge you... I get hit on... I feel gross and dirty and I feel like I never should have revealed myself...

thanks for the memories guys in the great aussie way

I love youse all