1724norfolk

THE BLOOD TRAVELS

13) He could make them love him but he could never stay. A few months maybe,
sometimes a year. Whatever the length of time they always ended up hating him
in the end. He never cheated, never lied, but, he could never stay. When you
remove love from the space it occupied in the brain there appears a tremendous
void not in the place where it was in the brain but oddly enough in the
stomach and the person is left with a nagging stomachache very much akin to a
toothache. The difference is a tooth can be pulled. When love is torn away the
only thing that will coagulate in the open wound is hate. Usually after a year
the hate resides and bygones are bygones and sometimes these ex lovers become
very good friends. After all there was some sort of intimate connection. Of
course some can never release the hate. You accept that in some way it is
their right, they are within their rights to hate you, even if they were
wrong. But really great hate comes from really great love so at one point it
even for a point it was really great. Too bad you can only see that in
hindsight and too bad the point is usually a sexual peek. So you are drawn
back by the sense that something was great, something that should not be
tossed away. But you can't offer the other person what it would take. So much
more fortified then becomes their hate. Best to back off for good you'd think.
But once you've been intimate with someone for the rest of your life if only a
random moment once in ten years you wonder what that person is doing right
now, and with whom. Many would agree that love is a phenomenon, but so too is
hate. And when love is not available and you are drawn to something or someone
that will inevitably turn to hate. By that time everyone knows it's too late
but, you begin all over again.