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veronica.
First off- yer a knockout fox.

second, I was going through the random picture thread and you posted that you wished you had a place to post pics...

try this for personal pics

http://www.altsense.net

!!

oh and I like that set mostly cause the RED and black (being my favorite colors) and the semi-innocent look on your face dosen't hurt the shoot.

Guaranteed it's not the same as pictures of *yourself*, but similar. I find I have the same feelings with artwork I've done. In fact, I had some very real stress when our first issue of our comic came out a few months ago because some of the pages were done nearly two years apart from others, and *to me* they were clearly inferior, you know? So I had this huge, I don't know, complex about it, but then we started getting reviews for the book and *every* one of them singled out the art as being very good, and not one of them mentioned *any* inconsistancy in the art. Then, at the San Diego con, the first con that we actually had a full book to sell, not one person, even when asked directly, definitively noted any substandard pages. I know, I know, they wouldn't to my face, that's why I got all CIA on their asses, but that's another post.

My point is, all of your photos are rad. Yes, you look more comfortable in your later sets, but that doesn't change the fact that your earlier ones weren't cool. And, ultimately, they are reflections of who you are, or were at the time. No photo can tell us who the *real* Veronica is. We can hopefully get glimpses of your personality, but ultimately we're only seeing your relationship with the camera, which is cool, but that's why it's art, it's just an interpretation.

What's my point, oh yeah, everytime you do a set, assuming you do more, you're going feel like you've hit a new high (at least I hope you do) and you're going to feel, especially the farther away you get from them, that your earlier work sucks. And the farther along you get, the more you'll feel that way. I can't tell you how many of my comic artist buddies wish they could go out and round up every book they did before their last and burn them, but unfortunately they (we) can't. And it's *really* a good thing because it presses us forward. I know it's a little different when we're talking about pictures of yourself, but if you wait until you've got it *all* figured out, and your *sure* that you've got the end all be all set in mind and are in a position to pull it off, well, I wonder if that day would ever come. Maybe it never will. For us, comic artists I mean, we do what we do because it's almost a compulsion, you know, it's sure as hell not for the money (money? what is this thing m-one-y you speak of? ), I don't honestly (because I have no frame of reference) know if the same is true for shooting a set, I don't know if you feel compelled to shoot more sets. If you don't then I guess that's the answer, because as soon as you shoot a new one and then get down the road a bit you're going to start deconstructing it in your mind as well. For me, that's a big part of why I keep drawing. I think my old shit sucks, but I have this overwhelming believe that I can do better, so I keep trying and it's this big vicious cycle. uggh!

Ok, so, in summation your sets are all rad (although Alter 1*sigh* ), do what you feel is best, your eyes are devastating (for sure), and, um, I need to sleep. Hopefully I don't regret this post in the morning.

Peace!

are you okay, buddy?
I wish there was something I could do ... is there?

Dude, you totally blew up Veronica's journal. It's a good thing I'm such a fast reader. Too bad there's nothing here from Veronica.

Twenty minutes of sleep, a complete change of blood, and I am GOLDEN.

hope you're feelin better, lady

Alka-Seltzer (even if you have to choke it down) and then as much sleep as you can get away with.

(Plop, plop, fizz, fizz) + (snooze, snooze, fart, snooze) = feelin' much better

"the diffrence between art and pornography?
if you giggle its porn...."

no but seriously folks. it can be very difficult to defend yourself against the views and opinions of others when their views differ from your own. its even harder to try and change someones opinion. like veronica said, your best defense is understanding how you personally feel about it and why.

as far as pornography and the power transfer goes. i believe this is an oversimplified, yet accurate theory. it is however still possible to reinforce someones demeaning and mysoganistic view of women (or anyone) at the same time as empowering yourself thru pornography. this belief is based on my own personal experience.

i work at a peep show and i see all kinds of diffrent people come in as both customers and performers, and over the last four years ive gotten to know some of them fairly well. for me it all comes down to motive. most of the girls i work with, feel the job is empowering and see it as a positive experience by allowing them to express and explore their sexuality. however there are individuals who take the job as an act of desperation, having been made to feel they arnt qualified or are unable to earn a living any other way. this makes me sad. sometimes these people can still turn the experience into a positive one with the help of more suppertive interaction with their co-workers. this is not always the case and ive seen the job work against a person's feeling of self worth. and the physical act of dancing naked is the same, its the mental motive wich makes the difference.

and as far as some of the customers are concerned. when someone comes into my work asking "where the bitches are cuz they want to see some sluts" there is very little that the empowered attitude of the performer can do to make this person see the error of his ways. we do our best to not reward this behivor by kicking them out ("no pussy for you because you are a bad man")and this is what results in so many fights and promises of finding my self stabbed in my sleep.

what you get from pornography, like anything else in life, is completely subjective and personal. if you go into a situation with a predetermined idea of what that experience is going to be like, most likely it will be. the best way to learn is to be open minded and form opinions thru experience not doctrin. and dont expect anybody else to come away from any given situation with exactly the same experince you did.

having said all that - i admit that these are my own opinions and this is the way i rationalize my own life.

I honestly don't consider this site pornography either. It's tasteful and doesn't have any sex on it, which is what my definition of porn involves. But I can see how normal joes on the street might be offended by the site. Do what you have to do.

And good morning to you as well, darling. Thank you for starting my day off with a smile.

ciao

Makes perfect sense, in a I-have-no-idea-what-you're-talking-about way.

A friend of mine who has collected a pretty fair statistical sample tells me guys tend to be better hung the farther north you go. She said Canadians are pretty well packed and the Great North Pole belonged to an Alaskan.

Welcome home. We love you here.

Hey...I submitted an application to be a suicidegirl a long while ago, and never heard from the site. I recently sent in a different picture, and haven't heard about that, either. I wonder if somehow the pictures didn't get submitted, or...I don't mean to harrass you, but I'd like to know one way or the other.

Yes, your friend Mia sure is something. She looks just like the first girl I ever slept with...lucky girl.
Ahhh, but dear veronica, you are still my favorite!

Mia is one of the hottest, most fabulous, sexy babes I've ever met. She deserves to have tributes made in her honor.