in pitch dark i go walking in your landscape.
broken branches trip me as i speak.
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there.
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there.
there's always a siren
singing you to shipwreck.
(don't reach out,... Read More
Medication is actually why I lost weight. I'm on two different medications that are appetite suppressants. I take 60 of adderol. 20 is even considered a high dose, and it suppresses the appetite even at doses as low as ten. I'm also on a medication called Topamax, which is actually normally prescribed as a diet pill. They've found out though that it works very well as an anxiety medication, and a preventative one you can take on a daily basis. It isn't like Klonopin or other anxiety medicines that you take when you feel an attack coming on, to stop it, it isn't a Tranq. It's also not addictive like a lot of those medicines. It has helped me SO much. I rarely have panic attacks anymore, and amazingly I don't get super frustrated when I get stuck in traffic in the car, which was a big problem. I didn't have road rage, but I would get super impatient and panicky.
But now I can't eat. I eat at MOST 1,000 calories a day, when I was definitely eating more than 2k before.
I still have a super awesome letter/goody bag/package I need to send you. I am awesome at writing mail, and suck at sending it.
Though this time it has been because of lack of money, and not forgetting.
yup I lost a bunch on topamax. But it's really an epilepsy med. I am on the 200 mg a day. I have been taking for over a year for migraines. If I suddenly stop with out tapering I will have a huge migraine to the point of having to head to the ER. Yikes!
the other day I got really cranky at and about work. I was trying to get myself to chill, gigantic tears resting on the insides of my glasses'... Read More
Depeche Mode all the way!!! Do you have any other faves by DM? My top 5 faves are: (in no particular order, I could never pick an absolute favorite)
1. Somebody
2. Question of Lust
3. Enjoy the Silence
4. Shake The Disease
5. Dangerous