facing some interesting juxtapositions. not quite sure how to resolve them.
currently not interested in using first person pronouns. okay.
am I invincible or am I a gigantic whiner?
and, of course, love.
being a hedonistic nun is mostly good. can I really ask for more? people are so good to me, and I would be an ass to say that, at any point, I don't feel deeply loved.
why do I need the definitional relationships? aside from that my therapist says I do.... isn't love good enough in any form?
I know I don't just want a warm body in my bed. I tried that before. didn't work out too well.
I know I don't want disassociated sex. I end up hating both parties involved.
but I like the warm body in my bed, and I like sex.
do I need to be somebody else's only somebody to have that?
to have someone to cuddle with in the theater while watching a movie? to have someone who will let me put my feet in his lap while he plays video games and I knit?
to have someone visit me in the hospital?
currently not interested in using first person pronouns. okay.
am I invincible or am I a gigantic whiner?
and, of course, love.
being a hedonistic nun is mostly good. can I really ask for more? people are so good to me, and I would be an ass to say that, at any point, I don't feel deeply loved.
why do I need the definitional relationships? aside from that my therapist says I do.... isn't love good enough in any form?
I know I don't just want a warm body in my bed. I tried that before. didn't work out too well.
I know I don't want disassociated sex. I end up hating both parties involved.
but I like the warm body in my bed, and I like sex.
do I need to be somebody else's only somebody to have that?
to have someone to cuddle with in the theater while watching a movie? to have someone who will let me put my feet in his lap while he plays video games and I knit?
to have someone visit me in the hospital?
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isn't love good enough in any form?
thats a pretty big interesting question ...i had said so many times my parents might love me but maybe not the way i did need ... but you cannot choose the way people love you... or even the way you love people...everything is just as out control as it sounds...
ok this comment is not helping but i would go to the hospital to visit you if lived a bit closer
take care