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Christ I'm edgy. I feel like I've been cooped up here in this little apartment forfuckingever. I have to get out! I must go somewhere or do something this weekend! I must escape!!! I think I will see if I can dig anyone up to go to Exit(an industrial club, for those who don't know), but that's proving tricky these days. Digging people up, not...
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anticlimatic200:
I'll still be on. Don't worry 
kozmikgirl:
me theenks maybee you mights be right!
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shicawgo:
depends on what the glass is full of, right?
Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken.
Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken.
azrael_abyss:
haha you got it 
We once had a passion
It all seemed so right
So young and so eager
No end in sight
But now we are prisoners in our own hearts
Nothing seems real, it's all torn apart
-Front Line Assembly
Remind me sometime, O my only friends, to tell you the story of Girl Emily, and why I'm sooooooooo bloody cynical. But not now. Now is for...
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It all seemed so right
So young and so eager
No end in sight
But now we are prisoners in our own hearts
Nothing seems real, it's all torn apart
-Front Line Assembly
Remind me sometime, O my only friends, to tell you the story of Girl Emily, and why I'm sooooooooo bloody cynical. But not now. Now is for...
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lielock:
Why would I dod that for someone thinking I was purty? That is mean...
Looks up...I like emily not the shirts but the skirts "she" has are cute..
plus my red fleece devil hoodie from em is comfy...oh well.
Looks up...I like emily not the shirts but the skirts "she" has are cute..
plus my red fleece devil hoodie from em is comfy...oh well. 
beatrice:
masked and anonymous
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lielock:
that is actually alot to miss. but some of it might be easy to find again..
ash:
hahahaha, I love that line from that story. 
Hell for people who don't believe in it--nothing but blackness and no fucking cigarettes forever.
-spider jerusalem
-spider jerusalem
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arienette:
ooh, a transmetropolitan fan...
did you know warren ellis has a livejournal?
clicky here
[Edited on Dec 03, 2004 7:52AM]
did you know warren ellis has a livejournal?
clicky here
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greenkat:
I do not like looking at fetuses while on SG, makes me think about babies and parents and responsibilities/
I know that, of late, my journal entries have been as pathetic as watching a constapated octagenarian try to take a dump. I know this. See, here's the thing. I'm really fucking depressed. I attribute this to a combination of things, not the least of which is the badly wrong chemical makeup of my brain.( have I mentioned before that I'm manic depressive?) Christmastime always...
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lielock:
ahh fetus..
and yes he is..
Well I wish I could tell you something to make you not feel so lonely...but I mean I don't know what to say..I understand what you mean and I think alot of people feel that way too...so yeah
and yes he is..
Well I wish I could tell you something to make you not feel so lonely...but I mean I don't know what to say..I understand what you mean and I think alot of people feel that way too...so yeah
derangedmichy:
Listen buddy..I'm turing 30 in Feb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is fucking depressing!!!!!!!!!! I hate me and I hate the fact that I even have to say it but hey life goes on and whatever u make of it is what changes ur life as well. I am not going home for christmas and I will be alone ( perhaps going over to friends' house) and it's fucking depressing but so what?? I need to feel like I am making some kinda life on my own and hey it's quite needed to be proud of oneself sometimes.
Are u happy with something about urself? Are u actually proud of urself for being independent, not needing anybody to rely on all the time?? Look at it that way..whether u are lonely or not, u became who u are and became strong to stand on ur own...that is something to be pround of cuz I know so many peeps who are just with someone cuz they are afaid to be alone. Better to be alone than being stuch with someone..right??
Are u happy with something about urself? Are u actually proud of urself for being independent, not needing anybody to rely on all the time?? Look at it that way..whether u are lonely or not, u became who u are and became strong to stand on ur own...that is something to be pround of cuz I know so many peeps who are just with someone cuz they are afaid to be alone. Better to be alone than being stuch with someone..right??
We are a culture of fear. We fear "the terrorists", we fear disease, we fear death, each other and ourselves. I want to walk without fear. Anyone want to come with?
I've found the key to heaven but I cannot find the door.
-Edward Ka-Spel
I've found the key to heaven but I cannot find the door.
-Edward Ka-Spel
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lielock:
ah well this has been my thought process since I was about 11...I was always depressed...granted sometimes more then other times but I was always depressed. But no I am just saying I don't get people that never think that..I am actually not to terribly off today just in a strange dream like sort of way...I have been worse...things have been worse.
lielock:
I didn't start seeing them untill I was in my 20's went to one when I was 16...but I was like not into it and my parents didn't push me...then 2 others not counting my "vacation" doctors or group therapy counsliing (that also had a one to one session) Plus I have gone to other doctors to test them out or to get evaulated or to try for some drug testing...but only 2 regular pysch's (with 2 therapists also) that I went to for longer then a month. Did that make sense?
He is seeing monsters. He is losing his mind and he feels it going.
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shicawgo:
I so want to believe that, somewhere in this vast wasteland we call society, there is that one. You know, that one who fills up the holes in you, Who makes this whole farcical existence at least a little bit worthwhile.
Hmm....I'm checkin my sincerity meter....I don't knoooooooooooow.....not many hopeless romantics hale from crestwood.... I'll give ya the benefit of the doubt....
Hmm....I'm checkin my sincerity meter....I don't knoooooooooooow.....not many hopeless romantics hale from crestwood.... I'll give ya the benefit of the doubt....
shicawgo:
and awake at 4:30am to boot.... yeah rare breed
I have downloaded much bad noise into my cerebral cortex this night, and my stoned ass must be allowed to speak!
I just saw eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. Astonishing. However, it left me with a profound feeling of sadness, happy ending not withstanding. I want my Clementine. Not the one from the movie, but MY clementine. "Oh fuck" you say, "he's not going...
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I just saw eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. Astonishing. However, it left me with a profound feeling of sadness, happy ending not withstanding. I want my Clementine. Not the one from the movie, but MY clementine. "Oh fuck" you say, "he's not going...
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arienette:
eternal sunshine is the most amazing movie i've seen recently. i love the way it deconstructs their relationship inside out and backwards.
but i agree that the whole instant-soul-mate thing is complete and utter bullshit- relationships don't just spring forth like venus from the foam, they require blood and tears to keep them going. lust shows up first and wiggles its ass in our faces, and when lust is taking a smoke break you take a quick peek and see if there's a framework there for anything more challenging.
i'm rambling, and i don't even know you.
but i agree that the whole instant-soul-mate thing is complete and utter bullshit- relationships don't just spring forth like venus from the foam, they require blood and tears to keep them going. lust shows up first and wiggles its ass in our faces, and when lust is taking a smoke break you take a quick peek and see if there's a framework there for anything more challenging.
i'm rambling, and i don't even know you.
sadieblackeyes:
that was a fucking amazing film.I was very drunk when I watched it so i dont remember it all, but I remember it made me cry. a lot.
now that would be one hell of a christmas!