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Wednesday Sep 06, 2006

Sep 6, 2006
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I've been wallowing for weeks now in self-doubt and self-pity. Why? It only makes life unbearable. Rather than doing what I love and enjoy, doing what needs done so I can live a long healthy life, I've been wasting my time suffering through mind numbing TV and food. I am so sick of just barely existing. WTF? Don't get me wrong, things are getting better. I can feel the veil lifting though I still sense the hangover of weeks of depression. Life only gets better with effort. It's time I start making the effort to turn my life into the vision I have for myself. This is such a relief, moving past this. I'd forgotten my place in the Universe. Sigh.

Thanks to Daisy for contributing to my wake up call.

Life is a dream. Make it your dream.
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daisy:
Don't know how i helped, or even if i really did, but i'm glad it helped. And it;s always nice seeing your name in other peoples journals. Hells, it's the simple things really, innit?

Glad you're out of your funk. Realising your barely surviving is hte hardest part, it's actually kind of easy to get out of a rut once you realise that you badly need out. I hope you find it easy. Hobbies and friends help, big time.

A strop is a temper tantrum. Like, "Daisy had a strop cuz zef ate the last slice of cake and left her none". You see? Proper good word that comes in handy, let me tell you.

No, people in Ireland usually learn to drive about 17/18 but i'm scared of learning to drive. I know it sounds stupid, but....

I can't believe how much people like my box idea. I never understood why people throw out things boy/girlfriends have given them after a break up. Even if it was bad. You still shared times and feelings with them, and those are tokens of that time for you to look back on and remember fondly. Or in my case, when boyfriendy acts up, and i'm wondering why exactly i like them, i have a box o sweetness to trawl through. I like my boxes. Wouldn't throw them out for the world.

Sorry for blipping. blush kiss
Sep 8, 2006
drave:
Self doubt! ..ehh dont fall into that!!!!
You know you help me out soo much what would I do without my gaurdian angels of you on my shoulders..helping me out..
I need to have a picture of myself and have a devil you on one shoulder and an angel on the other..
Im sick of barely existing too..so I know what you been I need to get my ass up and go do something other than Stumble into school and then work and sleep and the routine all over again!
Hehe hows class going? Oh and I update what my moms converstation was about.
wink
Sorry for the delay...ive been bizzy..I hate being bizzy like...today for example I had like 50 things to do but im only going to hav etime to do one thing..Grrr..IF only I didnt need sleep. lol..
Sep 8, 2006

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