I'm a fuck up, and an idiot.
Every met the[ person] of your dreams? Ever asked them out? Well I have. And if you were wondering what she said, well just take a look at my picture and I'm sure that not only wil you figure out the answer but you'll also get the pleasant taste of
in the back of your mouth.
She may come by and read this, and if so I'm sorry Jennifer, I knew when I asked I shouldn't, but I couldn't go through the rest of my life still hating myself for not asking.
I won't posture myself, it hurt hearing no or more accurately "I like you as a friend". It hurt a whole lot, that "Edge of tears" kinda hurt. but I knew you'd say no when we first met.
I will deal with it, but still it kinda sucks
JENNIFER if you do read this, please do me this one favor... Stay my friend. I'm pretty good at messing things up in my life but if I messed up our friendship I'll never forgive myself. I still care about you and would never blame you for how you feel, I hope you feel the same way about how I feel. You know me, I'm a fuck-up, but I will always care for you and I'll kill myself before i let anything I've done hurt you.
Forgive me, please.
Like I said I feel like shit, but appearently I'm not the guy for you and I never want you to have any less than the best, so you stay my friend and I'll shut the fuck up and we'll call it even....Deal?
AND Jennifer feel free to remark in my journal or posts and call me an ass or whatever you want.
PS Jennifer, tell Hello Kitty I said hi, and give her a big kiss for me. (inside joke)
Every met the[ person] of your dreams? Ever asked them out? Well I have. And if you were wondering what she said, well just take a look at my picture and I'm sure that not only wil you figure out the answer but you'll also get the pleasant taste of
in the back of your mouth.
She may come by and read this, and if so I'm sorry Jennifer, I knew when I asked I shouldn't, but I couldn't go through the rest of my life still hating myself for not asking.
I won't posture myself, it hurt hearing no or more accurately "I like you as a friend". It hurt a whole lot, that "Edge of tears" kinda hurt. but I knew you'd say no when we first met.
I will deal with it, but still it kinda sucks
JENNIFER if you do read this, please do me this one favor... Stay my friend. I'm pretty good at messing things up in my life but if I messed up our friendship I'll never forgive myself. I still care about you and would never blame you for how you feel, I hope you feel the same way about how I feel. You know me, I'm a fuck-up, but I will always care for you and I'll kill myself before i let anything I've done hurt you.
Forgive me, please.
Like I said I feel like shit, but appearently I'm not the guy for you and I never want you to have any less than the best, so you stay my friend and I'll shut the fuck up and we'll call it even....Deal?
AND Jennifer feel free to remark in my journal or posts and call me an ass or whatever you want.
PS Jennifer, tell Hello Kitty I said hi, and give her a big kiss for me. (inside joke)
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Hey, that's the way it goes when she curls her toes, so if she curls em that way, cut em off or you're a gonner/
"baphomatic said on Dec 23, 2002 07:40 AM
Christmas card would be a formal invitation of one to another to celebrate the birth (or lesser feast) of another altogether, that is the difference, in it excelled happy entrail weaving. "