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We did go the show, it was really good! But, we left early because my date was tired. He also was in a crabby mood. I would rather have gone alone because I felt bad that he felt bad. I can see the band again; they are local and play just about every week.

I robot - not bad, actually prety damn good for a movie that I though would suck. I gave it a B - I fel the same exact way about this movie. I thought it was going to be so freakin' retarded and ended up enjoying it.

I have a clear idea of what I what the band to be like. I was always reluctant in the past to start a band because my voice is so prestine. I actually just learned how to do disruption and raspiness last year. My voice has a tendency to be too perfect sometimes. Like, I was always supposed to be this poppy-ish singer because that is where my voice and my look fit. I had blonde hair. I hate blonde hair. I was called "barbie" in high school. It is interesting to me how much people treat me differently just because I changed my hair. So, anyway, the point is that I always wanted to start a band, but didn't think anyone would want me because of the above factors. So, I go to shows all the time and I finally went to see this band play that I have meaning to see for a year or so. It is fronted by a female and she gets to sing. It is like punk-jazz-rock. I was watching thinking to myself, "I need to start a band." If she can I can. I don't want to do the same thing. I just don't want to scream. I am not a screamer I am a singer. Also, I want to use as much of my range as possible. My voice is very strong and I LOVE using it all. I can compose simple bases to songs on the piano. I just need help with composition and what-not. I think some people start bands to be famous. Thats notwhy for me. I would be content to be a little indie band that finds just enough success, but I never have wanted lavish things. It is all about music. And my emotional health. I have things I need to express. Thanks for all the advice! I really appreciate it! I am going to stop rambling now...

Classic cat pic. Thanks for the laugh.

I know I should not bump no cha cha willy dilly...or however you put that...ha ha! It made me laugh! I just have issues when it comes to guys. I always think they just want sex and thats it. Only one guy made me feel otherwise. He cared about me a lot. I'm sure not anymore. I haven't seen him for months and months.

When I was sixteen I stopped drinking soda and anything else that has caffeine. I had been drinking a twelve pack of Dr. Pepper a day. So gross! I can't even imagine that. I can't even take a sip of soda. It tastes like carbonated syrup. Ewwwwww! Juice has a lot of sugar too, yes it does! Water is the best. It's my fav drink! Plus, after a while you will feel tons better.

Welcome back!!!!! I am still so envious, I would love to be in snow; can't wait until you post the pics of your travels.

It is really good advice that you have given me. As far as friend drama, i created more...but with a different friend. I did something really shitty to a friend about six months ago. It was really because she wasn't the best friend, waaaaaay too negative. She got pissed at me and I saw a way out, so I took it. It was shady of me. I should have been honest. I did not give her the opportunity to even know how I was feeling, therefore I didn't give her the opportunity to change. Then there is the fact that it takes two to cause a problem. I called her to apologize. Oh BOY is she still pissed off at me. It doesn't matter how much I apologize. She keeps responding with anger. I deserve it, but I thinking I should've waited until I was healthy and could handle it better.

Have fun on your trip! Where are you going???

About the friends request.....
I usually talk to people for awhile first..sorry.

Here is one major flaw I see in your argument about my friend: You are saying that I shouldn't sign her off because I need a friend, but she isn't being a friend. Right when I needed one she disappeared. New love crap I think is shit, just because if my friend had any kind of surgery I would be a nervous wreck. I was just blind-sided up her apathy. I really appreciate your advice though. I think you said something about not putting so much energy into my relationship with her, and I agree there. I definately don't plan on going out of my way for her anymore. Sadly, I think that if I do that we won't be friends because I don't believe she will put out the effort. I am only going to give as much as she gives now.

I don't understand gamers sometimes. Eating is so much more satisfying than playing a game. It's just weird.

I think it's sweet that you want to be a good dad if you get the chance!

Chappelle IS one of the funniest people on this Earth. Anyone who thinks the same must is always cool in my book.

You are so lucky to be going to Canada. I have always wanted to go. Hopefully before I leave this Earth, I will visit.

:::: dances ::: more peeples adding me to there friends lists wooohooo.

Hey babe

You should write in our journals. We love to her from you on our pages too!!

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