zark

i'm tired
i feel like shit
i look like shit
I've let myself go, didn't cut my hair in over a year, i shave my beard once a month when it gets way too big and i have a moment of inspiration...

i'm depressed for something like 6months now,
i haven't been to the gym in like 5weeks,
i try to avoid all my responsabilities, doing a minimum, avoiding people, getting home and lock-up in my room listening to pink floyd, notwist, radiohead, sigur ros, ... in the dark or just staring at the tv

my only short happy moments are when i touch myself, and even then, sometimes i have flashes from a life that seems so far away...




i want to feel happy again