Sunday Aug 01, 2010

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...My husband wants to work things out now.

I feel like i've had my ass handed to me like everyday for the last three weeks - and i've held up SO well, but THIS was not expected.

Thats all I really have to say about it for now - i'm still in fucking shock from the day.

I love you all for your support, love,...
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zaafirah:
Of course I care for him...I mean I married the man. When I got married, I ment for it to be the one and only time it happened - and since shits gone down I've been so dissapointed that he wasn't willing to put more work into things. So here I am, excited that he wants to try - but he's been so back and fourth about everything, and he seems really sure - but the truth is, i'm not sure he's ready to do the work, or give up the things that would be nessicary for us to have a healthy marriage. And do I really want to put all that fucking work in, just to find out he can't? I've been doing so much already...

Blah!
truebrew:
Not that my recommendation counts (it's your life) but if he wants to try you need to make him really, really work for this. He should have to prove all over that he is deserving of your love and trust.

Saturday Jul 31, 2010

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Finding a night job...lemmie tell ya.

So do I loose my Independence and get a room mate? Or do I start dancing, and see If I can't get some money together....?

I can honestly say I never thought I would be right here at 24 - and altho it's a little frustrating - It's a nice challenge.
I'll show him. And I'll show me, too....
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mira77:
A room mate might the start of great friendship, you never know what life will throw at you. Think yourself lucky though, never thought you'd be there at 24! I never thought I'd be here at 33. You got all the time in the world!
southernguynj:
decisions, decisions! roll the dice with a roomie? you could score a great friend as others have said, or you could be inviting Lucifer into your home.

Thursday Jul 29, 2010

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Clear minded now. I know whats going on, and I feel much better about it.

I'm sad for him that some wonderful man will come sweep me off my feet, while he'll still be getting drunk at the lake with his single friends - but I guess thats what he wanted, thats why this is going down.

I'm running fast in the direction of bettering...
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acidevangelist:
Hang in there!

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zaafirah:
lmao, those poor children.

Wednesday Jul 28, 2010

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I am completely mind fucked.

I'm glad I have so much work to do today - I'm gonna need to stay distracted.

Anyone have any advice on letting go? ...Quickly?

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indiebuddhist:
Listen to music at work ( if possible ).
alikon:
I find surrounding myself with my besties tends to help, but when alone its normally booze, cats and a movie.

Monday Jul 26, 2010

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This weekend has been fucking amazing.

Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy.

I'm excited to get back to work, and work my ass off, to make a huge check at the end of the week, and be a fully self providing, self sufficiant woman.

LOVE!

A. Muah! kiss
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indiebuddhist:
Makes one fell ... productive., doesn't it ?
sambone:
I just stumbled across your blog. It looks like you have had quite the tumultuous July. I'm glad you are/were feeling happy.

Friday Jul 23, 2010

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Dear Joe,

Why don't you kill yourself, while I enjoy the rest of my life?

That sounds about right.

Love,
A.
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femlover:
Stalker eh? Sorry you're having to go through that. Hopefully you find that peace soon. smile
suispud1:
Peace=good Stalker=bad Hope you find the good while losing the bad

Thursday Jul 22, 2010

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Another beautiful day - in my peaceful house, without a crazy, angry, don't give a fuck husband.
God I feel so much better.

I wanna do something fun this weekend, but i'm super broke right now. Any sugjestions?

What are YOU doing this weekend?

Muah.
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benben80:
Come to Seattle for Capital Hill Block Party and hang! smile
zaafirah:
I know! I wanna see Atmosphere on Sat, but I'm BRRROOOOKKKKEEEE

Saturday Jul 17, 2010

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I am a wonderful, beautiful, amazing, young, sexy, loving, hopefull, strong, smart, bad ass, power house of a woman.

Howr you today? smile

Muah kiss
A.
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charlatan:
I just noticed that I have a Farmer's Tan that is so rocking it could crow crops of its own.eeek
zaafirah:
lmao. good for you and your farming tan

Tuesday Jul 13, 2010

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...Apparently not so much okay...

The world goes on, right? My world goes on? I think it may have all hit me today...

Stupid Joe comming home every night drunk, making me cry.

Fuck This.

GET THE FUCK OUT. If you can't fucking trust me, and i'm so horrible then get your fucking shit and get the hell out so I can forget about this...
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eigor89:
Sorry to hear about all the drama Atiya =/ I hope things get better for you soon because you deserve so much better. I'm always here for you as well, <3
aaronc:
No drama! Sorry to hear about all that junk. I hope things pick up for you sooner rather than later. Hang in there! kiss

Monday Jul 12, 2010

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Update;
I'm Okay smile

And i'm gonna try and keep my damn chin up from here on out.


A.
indiebuddhist:
Good, always keep your chin up.
femlover:
smilesmile
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