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Last night I was pretty sure my mom and my sister were dead.
My sister has been in Africa for about a year now attending university.
My mother is currently in Saudi Arabia on business....and we're jews.
I got this strange call in the middle of the night from an unknown number, which usually means it's my sister, but it was this guy with a thick accent that I couldn't understand. I haven't heard from either one of them in a while so I immediately got paranoid that it was someone from Africa calling me to tell me my sister was dead. And then my mom wouldn't pick up her phone. So I was freaking and because that's what I do.
And I thought about what I would do if they were dead. I don't really consider my dad a part of my family. But I do, I have always, considered my ex Leo a part of my chosen family. And I thought about calling him, even though we don't talk right now because he abandoned me when I needed his support and caring the most. Even though he changed into this completely opposite person of the guy I loved, one who looked after himself before his friends out of sheer bitterness, I still consider the guy he once was as a part of my life.
And I miss him.
But he's gone.

Yes, I should mention my family is alright. I love and miss them both dearly and can't wait til my sister is back this summer. Sorry for the confusion. Believe me, if they were dead, I would not be functioning.