Today is the day I get the ultrasound to my ankle! Hopefully this will confirm a bone fragment loose in there, which is irritating the tendons n' stuff. If that's the case, I'm guessing they can easily cut it out and I'll FINALLY be able to heal! I CAN'T WAIT FOR 11:30AM!!!

Wish me luck guys! This may finally be it!

I can't wait to start working out again...I long to feel the soreness of a good workout! I can't wait to finally get in amazing shape! I feel like fat crap, and that needs to stop. lol


But, even with me being out of shape, I have yet another guy flirting it up with me (Wilkie). I've only been single for a week and a half, and I'm already getting way too much attention. I don't know how to deal with it all! haha
He blatantly flirted with me on his facebook, which surprised me, even though he's hit on me in the past. We were at a mutual friend's birthday party at a Japanese hibachi/karaoke place, and a bunch of us were outside for a smoke break (bleh...he smokes, I don't, but I hang). He said to me that he thought my bf was cool. He likes him, but if he didn't then he'd snatch me away quick. XD WHAAA?!?! lololol
I then sent him a message on FB a day or so later, saying that I wasn't sure if he meant what he said, but I was very flattered. I didn't really know what to say to that, and I didn't want things to remain awkward, so I had to say something, yknow? A week passes, and I message on Xboxlive about the game he's playing. And he messaged me back about that game, and also said that he meant what he said. OH SNAP! haha craaazy!

I'm just kinda confused about what to think...I mean, he's an amazing guy with more personality than 5 guys put together. He's got a heart of gold and is crazy and a fun guy who seems to have a future as a tattoo artist. He's not half bad...he's apprenticing with a really great artist. But he's also friends with that whole gamestop group, and my ex bf is an extension of that. So he'd quickly find out about me even hanging out with Wilkie, and I'm afraid that would screw with his head and change his opinion of me or something. I don't want to risk ruining anything with Alex, even though we are broken up. I am still hoping that something could spark back up in the future.
And another thing....I'm turning into a slight health/fitness nut, and Wilkie is nothing like that. No offense, but his body just aint happenin'. I feel so bad for saying it, but it's true! I'm just not attracted to him from the shoulders down....except his arm/leg tattoos are pretty amazing. He also smokes, and I'm REALLY not into that...that's pretty much a deal breaker for me. It smells, it tastes gross, and it fucking kills you. WTFFFF It also doesn't help that one of my other 'friends' is in amazing shape. I love a guy who takes care himself and looks out for his health. I'm not really a fan of the chubby stoner guy. Fuck my life. Seriously. haha


Time to head over for my ultrasound in a few! WOOOO!!!












UPDATE!!!! 12:34pm


Got my ultrasound!.....small tears in a couple tendons, another one looks like it was previously torn cuz it's thicker than normal, bone fragment confirmed, tendonitis, slightly inflamed...yea...I'm a mess, but at least now I know what's up and can figure out where to go from here!