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Met regret for a cup of coffee. I ask the same questions, hoping the answer would be different this time. But regret shows no pity, showing me what I want most. I often meet regret at undisclosed locations, hoping no one would recognize us. But everyone is too busy with there lives to notice my tense unhappiness. Everyone else is unreliable. Regret is always there...
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To a time when there was no pain, no screaming.
To a moment when shame and heartache never existed.
When happiness and comfort was taken for granted.

I just want to drive, with no anticipation of a destination.

Nothing much going on. Got my nipples pierced two days ago. I was told by various people that it wouldn't hurt much. LIES!!!!

I also saw Killer Elite yesterday. Good movie. I don't think that movie had any down time at all.

I bought Dance Dance Revolution. I do exercise by tricking myself into thinking I am doing something fun.

That's all for now.

"Hey Niggar! Fuck you!" (flips me off) That's how my day ended yesterday. But I'm okay. I know I am more than my skin complexion. My skin has gotten thicker living in this one horse town.

So thank you on my comments on my last blog. I feel better now.

So years ago, when I was growing out my hair. I decided to start wearing...
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Update on the car. I'm getting a lot better at driving stick. I am driving on my own around town. Watch out everybody!!!!!!

I'm looking to buy a new SLR camera. What do you think would be a good buy? Canon? Nikon?

I finally settled on what I am going to do for my first set. I just don't know WHEN it's coming. Thanks for being patient.

Hope you are all having a great weekend.

I stepped on my glasses and broke them in half. I was going to just buy some crazy glue and glue them back together, but my husband says it's time for me to get new glasses anyway, so hopefully I'll be picking out new frames today.

The stuff that I am using to lock my hair was supposed to come in tomorrow, but when I...
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So Jeff is getting frustrated that I am not learning stick fast enough. I'm getting frustrated, too.

I am getting fed up, so I am going back to my original plan to dread my hair. I'm just waiting for the stuff I ordered to come in the mail. Don't worry, I ordered it from somewhere else.

So Isabella (the dog) caught another mouse in the...
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I have my own car now., It's a 2009 Mitsubishi Lancer. I love it. The only problem is it's a stick. So now my husband's teaching me how to drive it. Yesterday was a nightmare, today wasn't as bad.

For the second time in a row the package I order with my hair was damaged in transit, so I didn't get it. I"m getting sick...
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Thank you so much for the love on my last blog. I didn't expect that much of a response. It meant a lot to me, and I am feeling a lot better now. I feel a lot more positive. Thank you so much.

The dog peed on the bed right in front of me for no reason last night. Very weird.

So is SG going...
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I bought another Jillian Michaels DVD, which I'm going to start on Monday. It's called 6 week Six Pack. I don't really want a six pack. I just want a flat stomach.

I'm a little nervous. You can't control where you lose fat, so I'm afraid I'm going to go back to a C-cup. I've been a D-cup for almost three years, and I've gotten...
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