xxjustmexx

okay, so yesterday was a very long day...


drove all the way to petersburg va so that i could go to court and show a valid drivers license. i was stuck in court for three hours just for that....

anywho, since i was already close to the va beach/ norfolk area i decided to stop by dear old Justin's place.... . it was about an hour and a half drive from where I was at, so i though " hey why not." So im driving, and i start to think.. " holy shit, this is the first time were gonna see each other".... (funny because i never saw myself as a person who would meet someone online) but either way i decided to push that feeling aside and just go. so i finally get there, and i see this cute guy walking his golden.


"Justin?"

*we both smile*

" hey what's up?"

"i told you i would show"

*butterflies floating in my stomach*

the red started to show up in my face as i parked.

" this is crazy" i thought... "but hey life is short." and so i got out of the car.


already tired from his crazy night the night before.. justin looked exhausted. (all night playing edward 40 hands can really get to you the morning after)

anyway so we decided to go out to eat at a local mexican joint that we found and sat and talked for a while. we spoke about the same things, love, life, experiences, short term people in our lives, and the long term. it was nice. honestly what i thought was going to happen was completely different from the way it played out. i thought he would just be some kind of player who says what ever girl likes to hear, and for the most part he did say some pretty nice things. But there was something more that lingered behind those eyes of his, something of struggle. They told a story that had yet to be uncovered and i was willing to wait till then.

We had talked so much that our food got cold and decided to leave.

next we decided to catch a movie. New Moon to be exact. I hadn't seen it in theaters yet so this was a good time to watch it. Especially since he says he like the series too. haha.

we sat and enjoyed each others company as we started to get closer. his hand was left on the arm rest as i debated on whether on not to hold it.

" go for it andrea.. go" i thought.

but how cheesy of me to hold someones hand whom i don't even know. but as uncheesy as i was i did it anyway.

a smile reached upon his face as i glance back and forth between him and the screen. it felt nice. i felt wanted. and to be honest isn't that what ever person likes to feel?

so there i was, watching new moon with my hand in justin's.

the movie went on as i started to get more interested in the plot. bella and jacob had began forming a friendship. like us, it was just a friendship, but i remembered what jacob had said

" I know what edward did to you.... and I promise i will never do that to you... bella... i will never hurt you."

my eyes started to get teary while i remember things about my past relationship. The hurt, the pain, the sadness i felt. And in those short moments of feeling sad again, justin leans over and says

" i promise, i will never hurt you."

i smiled and felt slightly relieved while a new friend of mine had made forget for the moment. He was romantic, and i liked that a lot. But who was i to believe in such a crazy romance after everything. Its hard.

and as pessimistic as i was justin was always two steps ahead with his optimism. he definitely brought some light to the dark world i had put myself in.

ill be heading down again today with my friend Sam to see some friends from ODU and to go see saosin with justin tomorrow.

Im excited ...... but not only for the show.