xxjcblackheartxx

So people may have wondered where i have been ....To be honest i've been where i have always been the only difference is i honestly feel like i've met my soul mate...I recently, well since sept 6 moved in with my GF and i've never in my life been happier than I am right now....This girl compliments me in every way ....right now i sit and wonder as i look at her how i got so lucky....I've never been completely bad with women but maybe i've been selling myself short the past couple of years as I thought having a girl this perfect was beyond my reach we have been together almost 3 months and through initially bumpy it has still been perfect.....Music is really really important to me...as you all know...this girl can literally almost play every song i have on my iTunes list without fail... on a physical not we have sex like porn stars ever single day about 4 times a day its crazy to me as i've always been a sexual person but not been comfortable with someone like her...everything is just so amazing with her



My divorce now can't come fast enough...My soon to be ex has been doing well herself which makes me happy as i now truly believe everyone deserves to be as happy as i am right now ...Still with that, December can't come fast enough for the divorce...I think she will move on as she already has and find someone ..I am learning that you can't MAKE anyone love you and that me and Angel will always share something but that thing isn't the type of love that binds...still i know she will make a great wife and or GF to anyone

In a sense i feel like my failed marriage was a good way to figure out how to really be in a long committed relationship i learned so much from my failure at marriage that i know exactly what i should do now in order to make this thing last....For the first time in my life i am not giving all of myself it is a 50 50 split and it feels great...
My only apprehension stems from my military career as we need to figure out what our next move will be come Feb...I truly hope and pray that this is the last girl I ever have to meet as i am satisfied in all ways possible with this girl.... and in some ways i thought were impossible......I just have to try and not fuck it up......she has sacrificed a lot to be with me financially and somewhat disenfranchised her family ... i just have to realize i am worthy of her and her love and not second guess myself

I am such a sap now....