So 2011 is here and 2010 is gone. This year marks my 6th year in the Service and I am up for reenlistment, I see myself reenlisting and hopefully becoming a Drill Sgt or a Recruiter. I have to make some decisions this year about my relationship. I have been in a separated but open Marriage for a year now, prior to that it was a non functioning and completely, loveless, passionless, and depressing marriage much of that well all of that remains the same yet I can't bring myself to leave.
I guess in the back of my mind I have a big fear I'll never actually find someone else like I am incapable of meeting someone again. Time will tell I know I need to finish school I'll be focusing on that as well as my new fitness goals of getting back into MMA and cutting from 177lbs to 150lbs ....I am not sure if I'll be as strong at that weight but I'll try and see if how i feel at that weight.
This last couple of weeks have been so destructive, I have literally drank ever single day for the last 3 weeks i am not sure why maybe I was trying deal with my feelings of loneliness and drinking goes just as well with 2 weeks of leave. The one thing I hate about taking so much leave is i sometime forget i am in the military after such a long time. I have a nice beard in the making and i am sad I'll have to shave it off before it reaches its full epic status.
So New Years night was great i went out with a good friend of mine Jeff who I've known from Iraq he's pretty much my closest friend here in AZ and he also happens to be my boss. I must have had 3 Jeagar bombs, 5 Beers, 2 Irish Car bombs and 3 shots of Tequila last night....and low and behold I have no hangover in sight....as per usual i met various women chatting up a couple got numbers but nothing comes of it....i am great at opening but i guess i am not a closer when it comes to the opposite sex. Maybe this reaffirms my fear that when me and Angel break I'll be alone... Regardless of continuing my 9 month sexless drought I had a good time with friends and I got home safely..though my night would have been better had I got so more drunken phone calls from friends
Killing some Celph Titled Lately
I've always loved 80s esqe synth pop so I am loving La roux lately then, i hear she's going to be on Jay Z's next classic needless to say i am excited
Love you all SG especially my favorites
I guess in the back of my mind I have a big fear I'll never actually find someone else like I am incapable of meeting someone again. Time will tell I know I need to finish school I'll be focusing on that as well as my new fitness goals of getting back into MMA and cutting from 177lbs to 150lbs ....I am not sure if I'll be as strong at that weight but I'll try and see if how i feel at that weight.
This last couple of weeks have been so destructive, I have literally drank ever single day for the last 3 weeks i am not sure why maybe I was trying deal with my feelings of loneliness and drinking goes just as well with 2 weeks of leave. The one thing I hate about taking so much leave is i sometime forget i am in the military after such a long time. I have a nice beard in the making and i am sad I'll have to shave it off before it reaches its full epic status.
So New Years night was great i went out with a good friend of mine Jeff who I've known from Iraq he's pretty much my closest friend here in AZ and he also happens to be my boss. I must have had 3 Jeagar bombs, 5 Beers, 2 Irish Car bombs and 3 shots of Tequila last night....and low and behold I have no hangover in sight....as per usual i met various women chatting up a couple got numbers but nothing comes of it....i am great at opening but i guess i am not a closer when it comes to the opposite sex. Maybe this reaffirms my fear that when me and Angel break I'll be alone... Regardless of continuing my 9 month sexless drought I had a good time with friends and I got home safely..though my night would have been better had I got so more drunken phone calls from friends
Killing some Celph Titled Lately
I've always loved 80s esqe synth pop so I am loving La roux lately then, i hear she's going to be on Jay Z's next classic needless to say i am excited
Love you all SG especially my favorites
VIEW 19 of 19 COMMENTS
We have to work something out one of these days so that I can come hang with you while you're on leave. I've never been to AZ and you'd be an excellent excuse to travel.
What's wrong with your cat?