I guess l'll have to retract my previous blog....my brother is sick i am concerned....my mother is doing miserable....i feel like it's all my fault...i hate myself more than i can let on...and i hate myself for hating myself
i cried today for the first time since Bernard died....i don't know what came over me...maybe someone switched my testosterone for some estrogen today.....i know i...
Read More
i cried today for the first time since Bernard died....i don't know what came over me...maybe someone switched my testosterone for some estrogen today.....i know i...
Read More
user0207231052:
It's beautiful......very moving
Another day bites it....
bored oh bored
i woke up this morning feeling somewhat sick......I find the temperature currently tolerable at best....i guess fall effects even the desert.....unlike afghanistan where it went from hot as hell to cold as hell in a matter of moments.....though i would say i enjoyed the latter
my efforts to post a video yesterday were on deaf ears of the...
Read More
bored oh bored
i woke up this morning feeling somewhat sick......I find the temperature currently tolerable at best....i guess fall effects even the desert.....unlike afghanistan where it went from hot as hell to cold as hell in a matter of moments.....though i would say i enjoyed the latter
my efforts to post a video yesterday were on deaf ears of the...
Read More
user0207231052:
Aww......I'm so sorry about the weather changes! I think it's good that people do pay attention to your efforts......and I also hope that you're taking care of yourself and I also think that you should post more pics!!!
renna:
I hope your wrist is okay!
And you're definitely one of the coolest people I've met!
Chin up, as always. Another day down is another day closer to coming home!
exes and ohs.
And you're definitely one of the coolest people I've met!
Chin up, as always. Another day down is another day closer to coming home!
exes and ohs.
Hmm another day closer to going home....My commander gave this speach today about being tired from 12 months away from home and how going much it sucks basically....i normally don't like officers but i really respect him....he is a great speaker.....
I have my final mission until i go on leave...i am a little more nervous .....i really would rather not get clipped right before...
Read More
I have my final mission until i go on leave...i am a little more nervous .....i really would rather not get clipped right before...
Read More
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
trixibell:
Stay strong honey
zerointeger:
i just wanted to thank you for protecting my freedom over there. i hope there is a big homecoming for you and your comrades.
I am in a better mood today
The girl and I talked.....
we somewhat worked it out...so much can't be said with words i guess
I don't know if i feel good about everything between us now....but i feel okay right now
i am thinking of taking a very vain photograph tonight...i really need new pictures anyway...stil i have never been keen on pictures of...
Read More
The girl and I talked.....
we somewhat worked it out...so much can't be said with words i guess
I don't know if i feel good about everything between us now....but i feel okay right now
i am thinking of taking a very vain photograph tonight...i really need new pictures anyway...stil i have never been keen on pictures of...
Read More
renna:
I think you should definitely take a picture!
I'd love to see it.
I'm glad you and your lady talked. I'm sure it's just the distance that's making you feel that way. When will you be coming home? Soon, I hope!
I'd love to hear you play drums sometime. You should record some stuff when you are somewhere with the capabilities to record.
And uh, yea! Ripping your beanbag chair is always the worst part of moving. Everyone knows that!
Keep smiling, you!
I'd love to see it.
I'm glad you and your lady talked. I'm sure it's just the distance that's making you feel that way. When will you be coming home? Soon, I hope!
I'd love to hear you play drums sometime. You should record some stuff when you are somewhere with the capabilities to record.
And uh, yea! Ripping your beanbag chair is always the worst part of moving. Everyone knows that!
Keep smiling, you!
bob:
Sounds like you married the right woman!!! 
There's nothing hotter than that.
There's nothing hotter than that. Something i wrote last night...i am feeling so Emo.... When i got married....i thought i would stop feeling this way...I push this down inside me so far that i forget that i actually have these emotions
The night sky's black and i am away from all that i know... I have this poison in my veins....it eats at my soul and applies callouses to my...
Read More
The night sky's black and i am away from all that i know... I have this poison in my veins....it eats at my soul and applies callouses to my...
Read More
user0207231052:
I'm here for you
I'm here for youI just enjoyed a nice 2.5 min combat shower... I find it funny that i have Internet capabilities in Iraq but
yet a shortage of water...i am bored waiting for my next mission....if i was smoker i would have chained smoked a pack and a half by now.....
i guess i am over my depression rut....for now....i haven't really talked to my wife in a...
Read More
yet a shortage of water...i am bored waiting for my next mission....if i was smoker i would have chained smoked a pack and a half by now.....
i guess i am over my depression rut....for now....i haven't really talked to my wife in a...
Read More
renna:
Hey hun,
Chin up! I'm sure things with your wife are just difficult because of the distance.
If I've learned anything it's that really emotional reunions tend to mask former insecurities and issues. I'm sure once you come home everything will be okay.
You're doing something incredible, and it's totally understandable you're feeling emotional.
Everything'll be alright.
xo
Chin up! I'm sure things with your wife are just difficult because of the distance.
If I've learned anything it's that really emotional reunions tend to mask former insecurities and issues. I'm sure once you come home everything will be okay.
You're doing something incredible, and it's totally understandable you're feeling emotional.
Everything'll be alright.
xo
vortext:
dude, i cant imagine who stressfull things must be. if you wanna make songs you should man! and im def gonna steal your drum recordings!
17 days until i go home....jeez i am excited...i really hope not to get blown up in between this time
i am so ready to leave this place......
It seems like the moon is right next to me right now it's so large i feel like i can touch it.....i zone out sometimes i forget that i am here....i need to make a decision if...
Read More
i am so ready to leave this place......
It seems like the moon is right next to me right now it's so large i feel like i can touch it.....i zone out sometimes i forget that i am here....i need to make a decision if...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
renna:
hahaha, agreed!
renna:
please get home safe.
I played some drums....man i forgot what it was like to have this much female attention so this is why i was in all those band....maybe it was a good reason i stopped trying to be all rock star like....in any case i really miss playing....i am thinking of playing full time when i get out i guess....hard to livve off of hopes and dreams...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
vortext:
haha, that sounds like heaven man. live drums allways seem to shine through on a beat.
carina:
Just like I said if I have a way I would be down for both. And you cheered me up a bit as well, it was definitely needed.
Emo moment number 5 this week....i am badly in new of a break....8 months straight laced iraq action.....i am drained.....physically emotionally....i really need some time to decompress.....
My diet is coming full circle....i hate how it has made me feel but....now finally....i can see my bottom two abs.....i am so excited....i hate cutting weight makes me have flash backs of when i wrestled....so now i...
Read More
My diet is coming full circle....i hate how it has made me feel but....now finally....i can see my bottom two abs.....i am so excited....i hate cutting weight makes me have flash backs of when i wrestled....so now i...
Read More
danipoo:
Emo-moment...seriously? I haven't ever been in the field, so to speak, so I can't really relate. Only if you count 6 weeks of 12 hour shifts with no days off fixing a shit-ton of broke-ass airplanes. Different.
Maybe its the dieting that's got you feeling all moody. My diet consists of bread, beer, coffee and chocolate and if you took those away from me I would freakin' kill someone. No shit. Eat some Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. You might feel better, at least temporarily.
Maybe its the dieting that's got you feeling all moody. My diet consists of bread, beer, coffee and chocolate and if you took those away from me I would freakin' kill someone. No shit. Eat some Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. You might feel better, at least temporarily.
So yesterday me and the girl got into a fight.....we dont get into many arguments over absolutely nothing...so i have no choice but to chaulk this up to
A. Me Being an Asshole
B. Me being In iraq
C. Me being a Newlywed
D. Me being a newlywed in fucking iraq
in any case we made and exchanged kisses on the phone so .....oh well......
Read More
A. Me Being an Asshole
B. Me being In iraq
C. Me being a Newlywed
D. Me being a newlywed in fucking iraq
in any case we made and exchanged kisses on the phone so .....oh well......
Read More
carina:
I'm finally for the most part completely better. So if you give me a call I'll probably be more likely to answer now.
And when and where for the Mars Volta? I probably wouldn't be able to go unless it's close due to a severe case of brokeassness that I always seem to have.
And when and where for the Mars Volta? I probably wouldn't be able to go unless it's close due to a severe case of brokeassness that I always seem to have.
I love having the internet in the middle of no where...even though i sit in an old saddam fall out shelter i feel some how connected to society......hmmm
Things i have done today
Talked to crazy iraqi Army people.....
shot some rounds off...
cleaned rifle.....
thought about sex..
thought about sex
worked out.....
watched 13 epiosodes of bleach
uhhh thought about home....
and then i...
Read More
Things i have done today
Talked to crazy iraqi Army people.....
shot some rounds off...
cleaned rifle.....
thought about sex..
thought about sex
worked out.....
watched 13 epiosodes of bleach
uhhh thought about home....
and then i...
Read More
user0207231052:
Agreed with your comment on my blog.....though I can't really respect his service when he doesn't respect the service of others
This is one of those days...one of those fucking missions one of those fucking weeks....jeez it seems as soon as i started to look forward to going on leave then time began to fuck me in the ass....i am really really in need of my leave...i am becoming really impatient with the Army as of late.....
I think i maybe addicted to Cough Syrup for...
Read More
I think i maybe addicted to Cough Syrup for...
Read More
wendy:
he's a bit pudgy and he's got serious game, hence the name. the champ is here!
connecticut is THE MOST boring state in the world, unless you like golf, or playing tennis, or going to the country club ......
i don't think you should be depressed. what's the point? look ahead! i know it's super hard but you have to. there's this saying in the Israeli army, it won't translate well into English but it's like "the man who can stop time has not yet been born." Know what I'm sayin? Time is CONSTANT. It is always there, and it will be your friend. It will never leave you. T-I-M-E. you will get through it.
connecticut is THE MOST boring state in the world, unless you like golf, or playing tennis, or going to the country club ......
i don't think you should be depressed. what's the point? look ahead! i know it's super hard but you have to. there's this saying in the Israeli army, it won't translate well into English but it's like "the man who can stop time has not yet been born." Know what I'm sayin? Time is CONSTANT. It is always there, and it will be your friend. It will never leave you. T-I-M-E. you will get through it.
