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So - I haven't seen Jake in weeks, and though we have reconciled through a rocky friendship, we remain apart.
And I miss him so terribly.
But I don't let him know that.
Though if he isn't too dense he'd see that...

Anyway, I came home to a message from him today, that said to check his blog, that'd it'd "give me a moment to think".

Back when Jake and I were together, he used to play "Glycerine" by Bush on the guitar all the time and I would beg for him to sing it to me - and, well... he always would if I begged him enough. He could sing pretty well.
It's hard for me to hear the song now and not get upset or think about him.

So... I go to his blog...
and here are the lyrics to Glycerine posted there...
and the song playing in the background.

I just started to cry. And I walked away from the fucking computer because I started shaking. And it got so cold...

Because I don't understand why he would do that or what he was thinking or what his motives were at all.

I don't understand him.
I never will.

You've got a beautiful taste.