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Not as broke as I was before, but still - not doing so awesome in that department. I really want to get my car paid off asap so I can quit this stupid ass job and look on to going to Pittsburgh in July.
Bleh.

I haven't heard from Jake since the 23rd. I'm sure he's doing his best (I wonder what he IS doing...) and I will hear from him as soon as he can get to me. I was up all night Sunday night crying like a stupid little girl. I don't even know where it came from, I just laid down to go to sleep, and it happened. I laid on my bed and stared out the window and I cried and fucking cried and I thought about stupid Jake.
I hate how one person can tear you up so badly inside.
When they shouldn't even matter because you don't even know if they should matter....
Should I believe in soul mates?
In connections?
I'm not really that kind of person.
Well, at least I never was until I met Jake....

I wait for him like a fool. And I know I will be leaving in a few months, but I wait for him. Hoping and praying that he'll follow me whereever I may go because there is just something about him that is so God damned amazing after all.

I don't know if you guys understand what I'm saying but....

I feel kind of crazy.
Eh.

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My birthday is on April 20th, for those of you who asked.
Oh, and I'm getting my nape pierced (and for those of you who didn't know, that is the back of your neck) on the 22nd. It's my birthday gift to me.

I'm making the best of my feeling otherwise. This month is nice. The weather is nice. My friends are nice. My job, not so nice.
But hey, it'll be alright.
I hope.

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