xxanastasiaxx

Added more pictures to the my picture file!! I had to try it out..

5hrs..

Ugh..how many times have I edited my journal today?
(is anyone keeping track) oh right..7 this is the 7th time..thanks

So less then 5 hrs left and I cannot come up with anything profound to say..all I've got is Patsy cline lyrics playing in my head.

time for another bloody...
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In the final hours
comes the emptying of my soul..

You can stay in my house
wrapped in your coat of razor blades
you can smash my furniture
get pissing drunk and break the bottles
show me your scars
where they knifed you, the tired lines
like zippers
Sweetheart, show me the bruises.
Curse me if you want to.
Tomorrow noon the two of us...
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What is reality?
I am a plaster doll: I pose
with eyes that cut open without landfall or nightfall
upon some shellacked and grinning person,
eyes that open, blue, steel and close.
Am I appoximately an I, Magnin transplant?
I have hair, black angel
black angel stuffing to comb
nylon legs, luminous arms
and some advertised clothes....

What is reality
to this synthetic doll
who...
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New picture time! refresh..

The entire room was frowning at Emily
they wanted to know if she was crazy or what?
It disturbed them she wrote so many poems
about death,madness and suffering,
Like: a normal person wouldn't do that,
would they?
but they were to polite to complain, so I had to
make a speech about it.
Said I: You know there are two...
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sooo sleepy today..
so I will just leave you the new hair pictureclick me
the longest braids go down to my waist. The colors are lavender and black. It is heavy. It took2 friends and 7 hrs to complete and it hurt! I had to indure 7 straight hours of hip hop and trance music. My friends chow tried to kill me repeatedly and...
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The birthday thing..was my own stupidity
I am looking for kindness where I should no longer be
I guess I am to sentimental sometimes.

Thank you for all the Happy Birthday wishes!!

The hair is finished. It took 7 hrs to braid and it is now down to my waist. I hope to have a picture up later.

Have a great day everyone!

My audience is God
because who the hell else could underestand me?
Who else has died twice?
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Aren't you going to say something? he says.

hmm? You wanted an answer to that?
You tell me two girls are in love with you and
you want them both
*sigh*..fine..I am no authority on sane living but
I guess messy, complicated love is better
then no...
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Darling, give me your absence tonight
Take the shade from the canvas and leave me the white
Let me sink in the silence that echoes inside
And don't bother leaving the light on
'Cuz I suddenly feel like a different person
From the roots of my soul come a gentle coercion
And I ran my hand over a strange inversion
A vacancy that just did...
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Sandra's seen a leprechaun, Eddie touched a troll,
Laurie danced with witches once, Charlie found some goblins' gold.
Donald heard a mermaid sing, Susy spied an elf,
But all the magic I have known, I've had to make myself.
- Shel Silverstein

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I'm convinced my ferret has gone mad. I am presently cowering on the couch, afraid to put my feet on the floor...
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shhhhhh, I am listening to your heartbeat...

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No one wants to be the muse;
In the end, everyone wants to be Orpheus.

Valiantly reconstructed
(out of terror and pain)
and then overwhelmingly beautiful;

Restoring, ultimately,
not Eurydice, the lamented one,
but the ardent
spririt of Orpheus, made present

Not as a human being, rather
as pure soul rendered
detached, immortal,
through deflected narcissism

I...
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