the day is young. the situation is getting old. why do i enjoy hurting myself. i am growing tired of being the one who falls. the one who's always there...when there is no one for me. i swear to you that night was...monumental. even though our views differ grately.
i am sitting alone. sick. anxious. angry. nervous. and scared. i hate you for so many reasons. i hate you because you consume me. i hate you because i can't help being a fool for you. i hate you because you make me happy. i hate you because you are the only who could ever make my heart stop and beat.
you are heart attack beautiful. if only i could forget you. if only i could just move on. i promised myself that i'd never go through this again. here i am. lead me away from you. i close my eyes and you are still all i can see. but i'd rather cut off these hands before i ever reach for you.
counting the minutes until this all ends.
i am sitting alone. sick. anxious. angry. nervous. and scared. i hate you for so many reasons. i hate you because you consume me. i hate you because i can't help being a fool for you. i hate you because you make me happy. i hate you because you are the only who could ever make my heart stop and beat.
you are heart attack beautiful. if only i could forget you. if only i could just move on. i promised myself that i'd never go through this again. here i am. lead me away from you. i close my eyes and you are still all i can see. but i'd rather cut off these hands before i ever reach for you.
counting the minutes until this all ends.
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I am sorry, I know how much it hurts, and that there are few words that can eleviate it. Please just hang in there.
and now i get it.