xalicex

well.......

today...i was walkin up to the bus station to meet zombie......( he and i both finish work at dinnertime on fridays)
and a group of guys were walkin in the same direction as me.....

i could hear them talkin......they were baisically talkin about me...i could hear em sayin things like" urgh....gross.....look at the state of her hair.."

"fat"

"would u?" followed by laughter....then another saying" somebody has to i guess"

iw as mortified.....i had to walk in front of them for a while and i saw soooooooooooooo anxious....my anxiety seriously went thru the roof

this is why i dont like fuckin goin outside! cos ppl stare at me with disgust....or tthey say it like those guys did.

i met zombie and i felt terrible.....i felt ashamed FOR him.....he had to walk with me by his side......

also....the other day i was walkin up the road and i had my mp3 player on......there was a guy on the other side of the road walkin in my direction. i saw he had a funny look on his face....and he was sayhing somehting...i couldnt hear cos of my mp3 player so i took out my head phones.......and i caught the last bit of what he was sayin.......

" cos ur gonna fuckin die"

he then walked around the corner and didnt look back......i was stunned....i was not expecting that...but it was sooo clear. that is what he said.....i couldnt understand.....

i fugured it must be my weight....i dunno maybe he was thinkin....ur so fat u better lose weight or ull die....?? i dont know....i cant hink......but it fucked with my head.

the migrane has gona for now.....but ive stil got a bad headache......

so yeah.....ive had a shit couple of days......

blah.....