three years ago today josh came into pizza hut and asked me out on a date.
now today, he moved the last of his stuff out of the apartment we've shared all this time and he's gone.
i should be happy, or excited, about my future and what amazing things might be in store.
instead i'm back to that unstable state. where i cry all throughout the day and i would rather die then try to figure out how to get through this all without him around.
fuck growing up, fuck being independent, and FUCK living here all alone. i hate it all. anxiety attacks, loneliness, heartache. there's not enough drugs or alcohol or anything in this entire world to fill me up right now.
now today, he moved the last of his stuff out of the apartment we've shared all this time and he's gone.
i should be happy, or excited, about my future and what amazing things might be in store.
instead i'm back to that unstable state. where i cry all throughout the day and i would rather die then try to figure out how to get through this all without him around.
fuck growing up, fuck being independent, and FUCK living here all alone. i hate it all. anxiety attacks, loneliness, heartache. there's not enough drugs or alcohol or anything in this entire world to fill me up right now.
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sorry to hear about your situation. we all go thru that at some point in our lives...no advice will ever really help. just keep your head up and stay busy.