alright...i'm getting bad with this updating thing. i tend to that when i'm busy and stressed out...even if it's a good stress.
saturday i had 2 friends come over...had a nice little sex feast, but as usual in such situations, i was the only one who didn't orgasm. still had fun making the girl moan. i do have trust issues with all humans...i wish i...
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saturday i had 2 friends come over...had a nice little sex feast, but as usual in such situations, i was the only one who didn't orgasm. still had fun making the girl moan. i do have trust issues with all humans...i wish i...
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starting my first drink...listening to some lovely cruxshadows...and a boy and girl are on their way over to play with me 
i'm sure an orgy will occur...follow up tomorrow.
on days like this, i love my life
i'm sure an orgy will occur...follow up tomorrow.
on days like this, i love my life
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hypermediocrity:
when are you available for bowling, girlie?
aproximation:
I dont know about Atlanta... I have friends in bot NYC and soo in San Fran, so when I fall flat on my face, or get homesick I have some fammilar faces I could go see... NYC is starting to sound better though... 
I dont know what its like but PMS sounds to be to be this hoorable multi-headded hydra: never the same head twice and totally unpredictable. I dont know which is worse: being horny ALL the time, or once a month getting hurty boobies, cramps, becoming tired, mood swings, body swelling and shrinking... Scary...
I hope you feel better?
You didn't answer my question! How did the orgy go? Was it literal or figurative (orgy of food and wine for example)
Also are you still in that rollerderby? What name did you finally settle on?
I dont know what its like but PMS sounds to be to be this hoorable multi-headded hydra: never the same head twice and totally unpredictable. I dont know which is worse: being horny ALL the time, or once a month getting hurty boobies, cramps, becoming tired, mood swings, body swelling and shrinking... Scary...
I hope you feel better?
You didn't answer my question! How did the orgy go? Was it literal or figurative (orgy of food and wine for example)
Also are you still in that rollerderby? What name did you finally settle on?
ah, the liquer takes the edge off life.
i'm trying to convince myself that my mood is just pms.
i'm feeling depressive, lonely...winter has been so wrapped up in his current issues, he hasn't really been around when he's in the same room. i love my winter...more than anyone in this world besides my kids...but damn, sometimes he's hard to live with. the thing i've...
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i'm trying to convince myself that my mood is just pms.
i'm feeling depressive, lonely...winter has been so wrapped up in his current issues, he hasn't really been around when he's in the same room. i love my winter...more than anyone in this world besides my kids...but damn, sometimes he's hard to live with. the thing i've...
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aproximation:
So many good things this post!
Dyed hair, random act of kindness, college, art festival...
And what is this fantasam? Or can I guess...
My X left me cause I was too overly-intelectual and introverted, which I suspect she perceieved of initially as just a phase. In truth I live in my head and am afriad to let anyone in.
I dont know where that little nugget of me came from...
Anyway, I would love to do some long range collaboration! It might have to be somewhat small scale as I cant really afford to ship large objects right now. (Or were you thinking of keeping it digital...)
Cool!
Dyed hair, random act of kindness, college, art festival...
And what is this fantasam? Or can I guess...
My X left me cause I was too overly-intelectual and introverted, which I suspect she perceieved of initially as just a phase. In truth I live in my head and am afriad to let anyone in.
I dont know where that little nugget of me came from...
Anyway, I would love to do some long range collaboration! It might have to be somewhat small scale as I cant really afford to ship large objects right now. (Or were you thinking of keeping it digital...)
Cool!
aproximation:
I wrote a really long post so I am going to sum it up here:
-Sex=good
-fantasam=sad I miss it
-Art=I usually do 3D, like sculpture, but 2D is cool
-Drawing=I am bad but willing to try
I wish I could come! (both litteraly and figuretively, my depression sence my X left has left me with zero libedo...)
I can see my fear of my own flesh being overcome by the desire to touch and fuck, dominate and be dominated (I am wearing my collar right not imprented with "submissive", I think I am a bottom, but in a top kind of way: I like to tell her how to start, like planting a seed. Is that common?)
Then my gutteral instincts would take over and I would be all hands and lips, eyes and skin, muscle and sweat. I fear though, like my last one night stand, that I wont be able to hold it very long the first time. but like last time, after somewhere between 30 min and 1 hour of kissing I was back with mor stamina then her. (But I cheated, a bit too. I like for her to be in top sitting up so I can see her move, and I put my thumb on her clit and play with her nipples and run my fingers over her chest and stomach. The thumb always seems to help, sometimes too much.)
I really like it when she is in that so-sensitive state 'cause then I know I have done my job. i also like it when she is on top cause she can put her weight on my chest (or throat if I am too close, sometimes a slap to the face) and dig her nails in if I am doing the right things.
I would be all hard now (
) if I wasnt so messed up...
On to more cerebreal matters.
I cannot draw. Well, I can draw something if it doesn't move, I have a long time, and it is supposed to look like a 3rd grader drew it. I would garuentee(that I cannot spell and) that your daughters can both draw better then me. I drew this from knowledge of my own physiology, and I cant even do that.
My X drew really well with mechanical pencil, but the style was a little too one dimentional (conceptually, not representationaly). The figures were very expressive though: very aenemic and starved: proabably a representation of how she felt either about herself or being female in general. I miss her.
Don't tell her any of this please. She asked me not to contact her and she has had stalkers in the past. I don't want her to have to relive that. She will contact me when she is ready... I hope. I just wanted you to see her work. Its really great.
I tend to sculpt, so I was going to make something and ship it to you. You could draw on it, make a context on paper for it, paint, build on it, poop on it (though I think the postman might not take it then: whatever. Or If your preffered medium is drawing/painting (which I totally understand) perhaps I need to learn how to draw anyway. I have been meaning to try to learn to draw well. I really want to learn to draw figures, to draw into/within photographs (part of the whole aproximate reality/construct thing. I need a new direction as the pureland emotionless cognitive hermetic reclusive introverted digital theory is a little used up, especially as I am to durty with humanity to go there any more.. You can read about it at my site. My site doesnt work quite right, you have to hit buttons more then once some times. I have too much code, and too disoranized of a mind, to figure it out it seems these days. i need to rewrite it from the ground up i think.
It might bee cool to do it all digitally, if you have a scanner that can do at least 300DPI and 8.5x11 inches. Then we could do an edition of photo prints for both of us!
Sorry for the long post!
Much kisses!
-darkeddy in suspension
-Sex=good
-fantasam=sad I miss it
-Art=I usually do 3D, like sculpture, but 2D is cool
-Drawing=I am bad but willing to try
I wish I could come! (both litteraly and figuretively, my depression sence my X left has left me with zero libedo...)
I can see my fear of my own flesh being overcome by the desire to touch and fuck, dominate and be dominated (I am wearing my collar right not imprented with "submissive", I think I am a bottom, but in a top kind of way: I like to tell her how to start, like planting a seed. Is that common?)
Then my gutteral instincts would take over and I would be all hands and lips, eyes and skin, muscle and sweat. I fear though, like my last one night stand, that I wont be able to hold it very long the first time. but like last time, after somewhere between 30 min and 1 hour of kissing I was back with mor stamina then her. (But I cheated, a bit too. I like for her to be in top sitting up so I can see her move, and I put my thumb on her clit and play with her nipples and run my fingers over her chest and stomach. The thumb always seems to help, sometimes too much.)
I really like it when she is in that so-sensitive state 'cause then I know I have done my job. i also like it when she is on top cause she can put her weight on my chest (or throat if I am too close, sometimes a slap to the face) and dig her nails in if I am doing the right things.
I would be all hard now (
) if I wasnt so messed up...
On to more cerebreal matters.
I cannot draw. Well, I can draw something if it doesn't move, I have a long time, and it is supposed to look like a 3rd grader drew it. I would garuentee(that I cannot spell and) that your daughters can both draw better then me. I drew this from knowledge of my own physiology, and I cant even do that.
My X drew really well with mechanical pencil, but the style was a little too one dimentional (conceptually, not representationaly). The figures were very expressive though: very aenemic and starved: proabably a representation of how she felt either about herself or being female in general. I miss her.
Don't tell her any of this please. She asked me not to contact her and she has had stalkers in the past. I don't want her to have to relive that. She will contact me when she is ready... I hope. I just wanted you to see her work. Its really great.
I tend to sculpt, so I was going to make something and ship it to you. You could draw on it, make a context on paper for it, paint, build on it, poop on it (though I think the postman might not take it then: whatever. Or If your preffered medium is drawing/painting (which I totally understand) perhaps I need to learn how to draw anyway. I have been meaning to try to learn to draw well. I really want to learn to draw figures, to draw into/within photographs (part of the whole aproximate reality/construct thing. I need a new direction as the pureland emotionless cognitive hermetic reclusive introverted digital theory is a little used up, especially as I am to durty with humanity to go there any more.. You can read about it at my site. My site doesnt work quite right, you have to hit buttons more then once some times. I have too much code, and too disoranized of a mind, to figure it out it seems these days. i need to rewrite it from the ground up i think.
It might bee cool to do it all digitally, if you have a scanner that can do at least 300DPI and 8.5x11 inches. Then we could do an edition of photo prints for both of us!
Sorry for the long post!
Much kisses!
-darkeddy in suspension
yay...it's v-day. just another day for me. i'm about to go into overtime at work...so hopefully i'll get off nice and early tomorrow. i think i'm becoming a work-a-holic again. i think i need to get out of the house and be social.
winter is very very sick with the virus.
i'm feeling much better now that sugar is out of my system...my mental clarity...
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winter is very very sick with the virus.
i'm feeling much better now that sugar is out of my system...my mental clarity...
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andreaandrea:
I am getting a b.s. (literally) in business admn. It was the best I could come up with to make good money that left me somewhat flexible. I tried education, sociology / psychology, and went back to business---where I started. It will suck to have to be conservative to some degree but hey, even tattoo parlors need office managers. I'm more interested in the HR side of things than in marketing or accounting stuff.
Where do you and hubby work?
Where do you and hubby work?
aproximation:
Ya, I love all the posts! I dont know what happened?
Yay!
Yay!
damn it's such a beautiful day outside! i went to get coffee and some organic food*yum* in little five. definately helped me feel better. found out there's a co-op preschool in the neighborhood. i love that i've lived here less than i year, and already feel at home. people in the community know me, and consider me a part of it.
if my daughter is...
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argene:
What part did you play in TTOTS?
my poor little girl is still sick.
she woke up in the middle of the night puking...
has accidentally had diahria in my bed...and just projectile vomited everywhere again.
does anyone know of anything otc that would be good for a 2 and a half year old to take. if it's natural or herbal, all the better.
she woke up in the middle of the night puking...
has accidentally had diahria in my bed...and just projectile vomited everywhere again.
does anyone know of anything otc that would be good for a 2 and a half year old to take. if it's natural or herbal, all the better.
aproximation:
Oh shit! Er, actually please don't.
That sucks. I bet your little girl is NOT having a good time. I have no idea what to do when a kid of that age gets sick. Scarry.
Im glad I dont have a kid, I think I would freek out at everything.
I hope she gets better. Think its a 24 hour thing?
That sucks. I bet your little girl is NOT having a good time. I have no idea what to do when a kid of that age gets sick. Scarry.
Im glad I dont have a kid, I think I would freek out at everything.
I hope she gets better. Think its a 24 hour thing?
(warning...bitch-fest ahead)
i'm bored and trapped.
i just want to pig out on some godiva ice cream...but i'm on a diet...need to stay focused and not eat out of stress and boredom.
i had an offer to go out tonight, but had to decline because i can't afford the time. the kids are driving me up the wall. i feel like a bad parent because...
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i'm bored and trapped.
i just want to pig out on some godiva ice cream...but i'm on a diet...need to stay focused and not eat out of stress and boredom.
i had an offer to go out tonight, but had to decline because i can't afford the time. the kids are driving me up the wall. i feel like a bad parent because...
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aproximation:
Dont feel bad about the kid wandering. I wandered SO far from home when I was young, and it fostered a sence of independance and self relyance. I dont really know how old 3 is though. Is that preschool?
Good for being strong. I ate a whole homade pizza last night as comfort food. 1/2lb mozerella, hand made dough, parmisan reggiano, toppings, the whole deal.
I have to get some cardio or I am going to inflate...
Good for being strong. I ate a whole homade pizza last night as comfort food. 1/2lb mozerella, hand made dough, parmisan reggiano, toppings, the whole deal.
I have to get some cardio or I am going to inflate...
had a pretty good time at the sg chinese new year party last night. burned lots of stuff...drank some vodka and redbull. my friend got a lot more drunk than i did...and we ended up wrestling on the floor.
met lots of beautiful women. Llona was in true elegant form as usual. that woman mystifies me. she has more class in her middle finger than...
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met lots of beautiful women. Llona was in true elegant form as usual. that woman mystifies me. she has more class in her middle finger than...
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ghostina:
thanks for being so sweet. we need to hang out soon.
thanks for being so sweet. we need to hang out soon.i just read something disturbing about a few friends of mine. i'm trying to appease myself with the knowledge that we all go after what we want, and death and destruction are just a part of the process. but as long as there is choice involved, i can't dismiss a soul to unhappiness. my inner hippie is arguing with my goth.
the girl doesn't know...
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the girl doesn't know...
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gailstorm:
oops trip posted
aproximation:
I would argue that love is scarier then death. Death you can control, love you have to depend and trust someone else.
I cannot offer advice, as I would likely be in the girls positon, and I can see how the guy might be frustrated. I can offer support for you and say that you are a good person for trying to moderate. Sometimes couples or even just people get so wraped up in their pain that an outside perspective can really help them out.
Thank you for being that good person.
I cannot offer advice, as I would likely be in the girls positon, and I can see how the guy might be frustrated. I can offer support for you and say that you are a good person for trying to moderate. Sometimes couples or even just people get so wraped up in their pain that an outside perspective can really help them out.
Thank you for being that good person.
same old work week...just another day
today sucked ass...3 people called in to work...and i did everything in the store all at the same time. the customers weren't too bitchy today though.
i've had so much more energy than usual today though...must be the roller derby. i'm feeling stronger.
i still haven't decided on a name yet...for some reason i'm not quite happy with annabell...
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today sucked ass...3 people called in to work...and i did everything in the store all at the same time. the customers weren't too bitchy today though.
i've had so much more energy than usual today though...must be the roller derby. i'm feeling stronger.
i still haven't decided on a name yet...for some reason i'm not quite happy with annabell...
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aproximation:
I took your advice before you gave it. I turned down a house party at my roomates rich friends house. Primarily because I have to work tomarrow and he is in the sticks: I cannot walk home and go to bed at some time or know that I have a ride home tomarrow.
So: moderation or coincindence? 'Cause I woulda gone if I didnt have to work. Woulda even sharpened my teeth first...
Its good advice though.
So: moderation or coincindence? 'Cause I woulda gone if I didnt have to work. Woulda even sharpened my teeth first...
Its good advice though.
last_firstborn:
Damn, anabelle lector was my fav one. 
See you guys at the CNY party! Take care.
See you guys at the CNY party! Take care.
What's fantasm?
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