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I failed (possibly). I will document how this night goes.
Valentines day was never a big day for me but now that Ive attached a modicum of significance to the 24 hour period I notice all the haves, and me the have not.
So I play with other have nots, but they are also intent on self emoliation like moi. All the have nots I...
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Valentines day was never a big day for me but now that Ive attached a modicum of significance to the 24 hour period I notice all the haves, and me the have not.
So I play with other have nots, but they are also intent on self emoliation like moi. All the have nots I...
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hyde:
AWWW Sweetness. 
You should SO ease on down to an urban enviornment. City life isn't all butterflies and rainbows, we get bored here too, but at least there's more people per square mile and the likelihood of bumping into some like-minded people is much higher. You shouldn't be sad you can't relate to those "people" around you. Feel sad for them that they are so limited. Bask in realization that you are far above them and they are to blinded to notice . . . they're prolly better off that way.
You should SO ease on down to an urban enviornment. City life isn't all butterflies and rainbows, we get bored here too, but at least there's more people per square mile and the likelihood of bumping into some like-minded people is much higher. You shouldn't be sad you can't relate to those "people" around you. Feel sad for them that they are so limited. Bask in realization that you are far above them and they are to blinded to notice . . . they're prolly better off that way.
andain:
AH lovey!
You totally made my day!
Thank you hot pants!
Still willing to meet up in Sin City? :wicked grin::
You totally made my day!
Thank you hot pants!
Still willing to meet up in Sin City? :wicked grin::
I am so confused.
I spent the night trying to connect with some people.
Its so arbitrary.
Which direction should I take?
Sacrifice self for art or sacrifice self for society?
I spent the night trying to connect with some people.
Its so arbitrary.
Which direction should I take?
Sacrifice self for art or sacrifice self for society?
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kinkerbelle:
art. Hope you have a happy valentine's day. 
haha. that was funny.
haha. that was funny.
hyde:
art,
Happy V-day
Actually I did sleep . . . .that night. not the others.
Happy V-day
Actually I did sleep . . . .that night. not the others.
Whee, see how far it goes.
I havent gone up, down and out yet. Just up and out.
I speak in metaphor due to you and my disapproval.
I am just tired of the constant decent, the lack of any real success, the lack of external reinforcement of my efforts.
I need to find someone I can trust.
I really appreciate you all!
A piece...
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I havent gone up, down and out yet. Just up and out.
I speak in metaphor due to you and my disapproval.
I am just tired of the constant decent, the lack of any real success, the lack of external reinforcement of my efforts.
I need to find someone I can trust.
I really appreciate you all!
A piece...
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severus:
Yeah, this is a long journal. I read almost everything, I'm tired and MY english suck, not yours god damn! I'm sorry you feel like you do but things can always be better and change to the better and you can always start over and maybe find a new place to do it in, maybe you should move? I don't know. I hate drugs I hope you don't let them take over.
What would you do if:
Your mom is a relitively uneducated alcoholic.
Your dad is pritty accademic.
They want to spend time with you and for some reason care for you.
They feel like they havent seen you very much if you only come over once a month.
They argue without resolution about stupid stuff ALLTHETIME.
You haven't been over there for two to three...
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Your mom is a relitively uneducated alcoholic.
Your dad is pritty accademic.
They want to spend time with you and for some reason care for you.
They feel like they havent seen you very much if you only come over once a month.
They argue without resolution about stupid stuff ALLTHETIME.
You haven't been over there for two to three...
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uns0uled:
Hey !
I saw your set... and I just want to say.. you captured something ... awfully nice
I saw your set... and I just want to say.. you captured something ... awfully nice
wyspurr:
just say no!
I dreampt last night many things. Primarily because I have slept 16 of the last 26 hours. I am sad and alone today, and every other day (sound of violins). When in such states I fantisize about the solution lying in finding a cutie to give me the hugs and kisses, among other less apatizing things. I always know this is just another temporary solution....
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wyspurr:
yea....i can't ask people out either...
i always asume they're with someone already, or wouldn't be interested in getting closer to a girl who's married with 2 kids.
i always asume they're with someone already, or wouldn't be interested in getting closer to a girl who's married with 2 kids.
I was bad again last night. But fun too. I am ambivolent, torn as to how to intrepret my behavior.
The night begins with me working on some photo/digital art stuff. Drunkin roomate draws me to my gin by sugguesting that she has been drinking and was going out. Fiendish.
So I tie one one and go out to meet her at the scum downer...
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The night begins with me working on some photo/digital art stuff. Drunkin roomate draws me to my gin by sugguesting that she has been drinking and was going out. Fiendish.
So I tie one one and go out to meet her at the scum downer...
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wyspurr:
sounds like you had fun...but you need to learn moderation or you'll burn yourself out. there is such a thing as too much of a good thing.
eponine:
sith...ever see star wars?
think darth vader.
and i would never dream of seeing psiko without my bone saw. we're just those kinds of people.
think darth vader.
and i would never dream of seeing psiko without my bone saw. we're just those kinds of people.
OK, I rewrote the damned post that got erased. I got to develop it a bit more, adding details I had origionally left out, so perhaps it is all for the best.
Here we go...
I had a dream...
There was 5 people staying at this rustic European style lodge/farm. Perhaps it was in Ireland as the grass was deep green and there was a...
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Here we go...
I had a dream...
There was 5 people staying at this rustic European style lodge/farm. Perhaps it was in Ireland as the grass was deep green and there was a...
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severus:
man i'm so glad i got gooood grades. puh. this weekend is going to be sweeet! no more stress. what are you going to do?
synapse:
Drugs keep getting done to kill the pain, until they wear down your ego enough so that the id spills over, and you can't stop it. The pain will then come in such rushes that your body will take its own actions to stop it - involuntary numbness, spotty memory/memory loss, inability to focus, and etceteras. It's a round-about path, but still leads to the same place - resolution. I speak not of you, but of myself - trying to get over him, or so I thought. I was trying to get over myself. I was the one that carried the pain, the one who perpetuated it. He could have been anybody - this particular muse just happened to come along at the right/wrong time. The relationship that took years for me to get over was the bond that I'd had with my adolescent self (which was a stage in my, as well as anyone else's life that isn't based on age, but psychological/emotional development). Am I rambling? Yes, I think that I must be. Break it up, people - nothing to see here!
I wrote a big long post, but then accidently erased it. 
Fuck.
Well here is what you need to know:
Slightly sad
Questions of why I do things
Twin peaks night
Stupid plans for stupid life
Bla
Bla
Bla
DAMIT!
Fuck.
Well here is what you need to know:
Slightly sad
Questions of why I do things
Twin peaks night
Stupid plans for stupid life
Bla
Bla
Bla
DAMIT!
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wyspurr:
that sucks...
so...um...as far as messengers go...
you'd probably like gaim the best, it takes up the least space, and combines all the different messengers into one...but you'd have to have a yahoo id account first. next to that, i'd go with yahoo messenger.
let me know when you get one, if you do, so i can talk to you.
so...um...as far as messengers go...
you'd probably like gaim the best, it takes up the least space, and combines all the different messengers into one...but you'd have to have a yahoo id account first. next to that, i'd go with yahoo messenger.
let me know when you get one, if you do, so i can talk to you.
Later that night...
As I wait to get tired so that I can go to sleep to work yet another day so that I can either take drugs or try to get into grad school for some reason, I ask myself a few questions:
Am I wrong and can there be love?
Premise: Relitive existance.
Result: Love fades at best into friendship + sex, and...
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As I wait to get tired so that I can go to sleep to work yet another day so that I can either take drugs or try to get into grad school for some reason, I ask myself a few questions:
Am I wrong and can there be love?
Premise: Relitive existance.
Result: Love fades at best into friendship + sex, and...
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eponine:
i don't know about letting any doves out or anything, but drugs are definitely not the way to fill that emptiness permanently.
garden state is a great movie, it makes me all sniffley and wimpy at the end.
i would move with my sister, but she's going to minneapolis and i hear it's very cold there...besides, i've got the school thing going here.
moving out of denver sure is tempting, though.
it seems to get lamer here by the day.
garden state is a great movie, it makes me all sniffley and wimpy at the end.
i would move with my sister, but she's going to minneapolis and i hear it's very cold there...besides, i've got the school thing going here.
moving out of denver sure is tempting, though.
it seems to get lamer here by the day. 
godiva666:
Approximation: I love your posts. But just get on the fucking bike, will you? And OF COURSE I will keep you updated, as this story is bound to be interesting... but you're dead on in terms of your interpretation of this boy.