well...my computer just locked up on me. hate it when it bitch slaps me like that. i think it wanted me stop reading while listening to really bad 80's music. speaking of computers? does anyone know how to install a video card? ours is not installing.
what am i doing?
i think this is the first time in my life that i really have no idea.
it's kind of fun.
so what do i want to do today?
i guess i should go sleep some more.
i'm going to go drinking with the ladies of skate later. my bowels are so happy with me this weekend. why do we have to drink to be social? does it really take chemicals for us to trust each other enough to share ourselves?
and the kids are coming back from their easter trip today.
the peace was nice while it lasted...back to getting things done instead of just having fun.
i've got an icky sinus disease...but i'm trying to ignore it. it's working out well so far.
and one more thing...i think i'm gettingrusty. i'm not as alert and aware of the world around me as i used to be. i think the city is either causing me to shut down because of overstiulation...or i'm just not used to city energy yet. it seems to come back when i get back into my element. i will always be a country girl...i miss waking up to birds and spider-webbed, tree-filtered sunrises. i miss going to bed to the sounds of crickets and the sight of lightning bugs. myfriend is probably going to take me to some local woods next weekend...but it's still not the same. the trees in georgia are so scrawny...and the wildlife so much more limited.
what am i doing?
i think this is the first time in my life that i really have no idea.
it's kind of fun.
so what do i want to do today?
i guess i should go sleep some more.
i'm going to go drinking with the ladies of skate later. my bowels are so happy with me this weekend. why do we have to drink to be social? does it really take chemicals for us to trust each other enough to share ourselves?
and the kids are coming back from their easter trip today.
the peace was nice while it lasted...back to getting things done instead of just having fun.
i've got an icky sinus disease...but i'm trying to ignore it. it's working out well so far.
and one more thing...i think i'm gettingrusty. i'm not as alert and aware of the world around me as i used to be. i think the city is either causing me to shut down because of overstiulation...or i'm just not used to city energy yet. it seems to come back when i get back into my element. i will always be a country girl...i miss waking up to birds and spider-webbed, tree-filtered sunrises. i miss going to bed to the sounds of crickets and the sight of lightning bugs. myfriend is probably going to take me to some local woods next weekend...but it's still not the same. the trees in georgia are so scrawny...and the wildlife so much more limited.
I think you have it figured out! To not have plans and to be happy in that state is what ever relegion trys to atain. Cause if you can do that - be happy accecpting things as they come and just take things one day at a time - then you can never be dissapointed, never sad or lost, becasue you dont hang on to things in the past and dont get confused looking to greener pastures in the future. I envy you!
I am lucky when it comes to nature. Where I live I get to hear crickets and I can walk to the foothills. I can stand on my roof at night and watch the lightning in the thunderstoms that surround the valley my town is in in the summer, but I also cannot go dancing a t fetish clubs unless I drive to denver (I have no car and the cab is $70 each way) where there is apparently only one night of fetish dancing anymore sence my favorite club closed, and it is at a gay bar (which is fine I guess but I like girls too, proabably mostly).