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i just read something disturbing about a few friends of mine. i'm trying to appease myself with the knowledge that we all go after what we want, and death and destruction are just a part of the process. but as long as there is choice involved, i can't dismiss a soul to unhappiness. my inner hippie is arguing with my goth.

the girl doesn't know what she wants. she thinks that the immediate happiness of a pill or a powder is enough. and in the moment it is. but the moments in between contain the most sharp points of lonliness imaginable. he used to be there to fill that hole, but she can't dangle him on a string anymore, can't put him on a plate or in a vial. a part of her wants him to tell her no.

he just loves her. but she probably isn't ready for his kind of love. she loves death more...and he brings sunny meadows. nothing flashy...just someone who will always be there. romance isn't stable, it's not controlable...it doesn't come in measured miligrams and doses. romance is a scary concept. but i think death is scarier. you can come back from a broken relationship. and while there is reincarnation...do you really want to start over and tackle the same issues over again? why not try to get through this life instead?

girl, please don't do anything stupid...there are people who care.
guy, please don't be too angry at her...i know it's hard and you've been here before...but she's just a scared animal whose dreams are more vivid than the reality...her fears are real to her.
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gailstorm:
oops trip posted
Feb 5, 2005
aproximation:
I would argue that love is scarier then death. Death you can control, love you have to depend and trust someone else.

I cannot offer advice, as I would likely be in the girls positon, and I can see how the guy might be frustrated. I can offer support for you and say that you are a good person for trying to moderate. Sometimes couples or even just people get so wraped up in their pain that an outside perspective can really help them out.
Thank you for being that good person. smile
Feb 5, 2005

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