here's a poem i wrote today.
Outside In
She eats my self
and licks her fingers clean
cat-satisfied
wearing my heart
like a wet glove
Each time she moves a finger
she plays puppeteer
soul-spine engineer
Ligaments wrap around
joining the flesh between
Even surgeons can't sew
as close as this
I feel she will become me
she sears through flesh and bone
nowhere left...
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Outside In
She eats my self
and licks her fingers clean
cat-satisfied
wearing my heart
like a wet glove
Each time she moves a finger
she plays puppeteer
soul-spine engineer
Ligaments wrap around
joining the flesh between
Even surgeons can't sew
as close as this
I feel she will become me
she sears through flesh and bone
nowhere left...
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i've taken two prescription allergy pills, and i'm still feeling the effects of this damn pollon. when i got to work, i found that my opening manager wasn't there. so i had to open the store and get the registers ready, and run the things until she got there. we opened late...people had to wait because i was taking orders, making the bagel, then ringing...
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andreaandrea:
See, i'm on that professional woman path now and i don't like it. However, i will not end up that way because i would go absolutely nuts. i really am not exactly sure what i'll do with my business degree. i just know i'm gonna have to find a kick ass place to work where i can have purple hair and blue nails if i want. I did realize at some point that tattoo shops need office mngrs too!! Who knows? There is also the money factor- with which i question...is it worth it? 
did you go to onie's party?
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did you go to onie's party?
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alaspooryorick:
Crap, you gotta let me know what happens with that. He wants to marry her, but is she as serious about him as he is about her?
very shitty day at work. did 3 jobs at the same time like usual...'cept we were very busy, which makes doing so quite difficult. i can do it, it just wears me out...and i wonder why i have such a drive to be good that i drive myself down physically and mentally. i think it's because i'm stubborn and can never back away from a...
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onie:
you are so brilliant.. i thought you should know 
and i had to stop reading your last post because i am unable to handle hearing about children in not so good situations. i only read up tillthe puppy dog part and saying she wants her daddy and how that woman tryed to make her feel guilty. that poor baby. i wish i could take all these children out of there bad homes and give them all the love, safety and security they need. people like that dont even deserve children. sorry about ranting.. its such a touchy subject for me.
but on a good topic.. i cant wait to meet you on Saturday!
and i had to stop reading your last post because i am unable to handle hearing about children in not so good situations. i only read up tillthe puppy dog part and saying she wants her daddy and how that woman tryed to make her feel guilty. that poor baby. i wish i could take all these children out of there bad homes and give them all the love, safety and security they need. people like that dont even deserve children. sorry about ranting.. its such a touchy subject for me.
but on a good topic.. i cant wait to meet you on Saturday!
people are so entertaining to observe. it's a good thing they keep my interest, or i might have to stop living.
at work, there was a lady who was charged for an extra bagel...at first she was going to get a refund...instead she gave it to a transient man outside, then bought him a coffee(i didn't charge her, but the thought...) i could have given...
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at work, there was a lady who was charged for an extra bagel...at first she was going to get a refund...instead she gave it to a transient man outside, then bought him a coffee(i didn't charge her, but the thought...) i could have given...
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well...today has been productive.
-called the girl scout troop...all 15.
-finished up my taxes(states)
-cleaned my paper filing area...amazing what you can find
-rescheduled my jury duty(i thought today was the 4th)
-got paperwork together for foodstamps
-inquired about getting sponsorship from jagermeister for our roller girl team!(go jager!)
still to do:
-get groceries(that milk is getting rank!)
-cook dinner
-go to roller derby practice...
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-called the girl scout troop...all 15.
-finished up my taxes(states)
-cleaned my paper filing area...amazing what you can find
-rescheduled my jury duty(i thought today was the 4th)
-got paperwork together for foodstamps
-inquired about getting sponsorship from jagermeister for our roller girl team!(go jager!)
still to do:
-get groceries(that milk is getting rank!)
-cook dinner
-go to roller derby practice...
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i discovered this weekend, that while my judgement, and ability to juggle many people's egos all at once, has gotten better than it used to be...i'm still prone to get caught up in moments when i'm having fun, and have problems being considerate to other people involved. i think the hardest part about being in a relationship of any kind, friendship, lover, spouse...is loving the...
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andreaandrea:
You don't have to tell me. The real partyin' hadn't even started when I had my first one at 17-- which is why the second one took 5 more years in the making 
Anyhoo, i tried the normal soccer mom thing at 24ish and hated it, wasn't really recieved well of the 30yr old moms. I just didn't fit in. hmmmm?
Anyhoo, i want to come the party that onie is having but it's spring break for the boys and we're going to do a family trip to somewhere...?
Anyhoo, i tried the normal soccer mom thing at 24ish and hated it, wasn't really recieved well of the 30yr old moms. I just didn't fit in. hmmmm?
Anyhoo, i want to come the party that onie is having but it's spring break for the boys and we're going to do a family trip to somewhere...?
andreaandrea:
p.s. give me your # again and we'll try to coordinate something sometime somewhere someday! 
roller derby practice kicked so much ass, including my own, tonight. it was the best, and roughest practice we've had yet. i love my girls...they push themselves..hurt themselves...then get up and hurt some more. our hockey coach is awesome! he pushes us with a smirk on his face while demanding pictures of the bruises. i made all my jumps without falling...but during a scrimage, i...
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they never cease to amaze me.
my oldest, who just turned 6 a few weeks ago...just read from an old reader from the 50's by herself...then wrote and illustrated a rough draft book report. she's in kindergarden. i don't remember doing anything more complicated than fingerpainting in kindergarden. i mean, yes, she has exceptional parents...her father could read newspapers at 4...and i was 6 in...
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my oldest, who just turned 6 a few weeks ago...just read from an old reader from the 50's by herself...then wrote and illustrated a rough draft book report. she's in kindergarden. i don't remember doing anything more complicated than fingerpainting in kindergarden. i mean, yes, she has exceptional parents...her father could read newspapers at 4...and i was 6 in...
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gailstorm:
They will. They're make her childhood a living hell.
But she'll be the one firing them later on.
But she'll be the one firing them later on.
well...my computer just locked up on me. hate it when it bitch slaps me like that. i think it wanted me stop reading while listening to really bad 80's music. speaking of computers? does anyone know how to install a video card? ours is not installing.
what am i doing?
i think this is the first time in my life that i really have no...
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what am i doing?
i think this is the first time in my life that i really have no...
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undressyourheart:
Sleep, sleep, sleep, That's all I would do if I could. 
aproximation:
What kind of video card (ATI, Nvidia, etc...)? What operating system (Linux, OSX, WinXP, Solarus, etc...)?
I think you have it figured out! To not have plans and to be happy in that state is what ever relegion trys to atain. Cause if you can do that - be happy accecpting things as they come and just take things one day at a time - then you can never be dissapointed, never sad or lost, becasue you dont hang on to things in the past and dont get confused looking to greener pastures in the future. I envy you!
I am lucky when it comes to nature. Where I live I get to hear crickets and I can walk to the foothills. I can stand on my roof at night and watch the lightning in the thunderstoms that surround the valley my town is in in the summer, but I also cannot go dancing a t fetish clubs unless I drive to denver (I have no car and the cab is $70 each way) where there is apparently only one night of fetish dancing anymore sence my favorite club closed, and it is at a gay bar (which is fine I guess but I like girls too, proabably mostly).
I think you have it figured out! To not have plans and to be happy in that state is what ever relegion trys to atain. Cause if you can do that - be happy accecpting things as they come and just take things one day at a time - then you can never be dissapointed, never sad or lost, becasue you dont hang on to things in the past and dont get confused looking to greener pastures in the future. I envy you!
I am lucky when it comes to nature. Where I live I get to hear crickets and I can walk to the foothills. I can stand on my roof at night and watch the lightning in the thunderstoms that surround the valley my town is in in the summer, but I also cannot go dancing a t fetish clubs unless I drive to denver (I have no car and the cab is $70 each way) where there is apparently only one night of fetish dancing anymore sence my favorite club closed, and it is at a gay bar (which is fine I guess but I like girls too, proabably mostly).
what the fuck?!?!?
why do i have such mentlaly unstable friends? and why do theyall end upwanting to fuck me?
last night, first the neighborkissed me andinvited me to his place...where he asked to touch my boobs. of course i said no...and his mouth tasted like an ashetray anyway. i just thought it quite funny.
then later in the morning...my friend who came from north...
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why do i have such mentlaly unstable friends? and why do theyall end upwanting to fuck me?
last night, first the neighborkissed me andinvited me to his place...where he asked to touch my boobs. of course i said no...and his mouth tasted like an ashetray anyway. i just thought it quite funny.
then later in the morning...my friend who came from north...
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gailstorm:
Yes, we must hang out.
sniggitysnags:
Who isnt mentally stable in this day in age? So many people warped by *insert warped reason here*... I'm only mentally unstable when Ive been drinking.... and Ive been drinking tonight.... 
i love days like these.
i miss the sun...spring and fall are my favorite seasons. spring is when the world, and the animals are waking up...even the flowers smell like sex. fall is when things are going to sleep.
when i walked down to the store to get some goldenseal extract for my daughter's ears, i wanted to feel the warmth of the sun on...
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i miss the sun...spring and fall are my favorite seasons. spring is when the world, and the animals are waking up...even the flowers smell like sex. fall is when things are going to sleep.
when i walked down to the store to get some goldenseal extract for my daughter's ears, i wanted to feel the warmth of the sun on...
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i've been really philosophical and distant today. even on the train i wrote poetry instead of reading like usual. i think the poor black folk on the train thought was crazy...i know i had that mad distant look in my eyes like a woman possessed. it was something i had to get out. maybe my inspiration is coming back. i also am craving working on...
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