wrathraptor

Fantastic thunderstorms over northern Denver, tonight! I love the lightning and the thunder, the rain and hail. All of it awakens something primal within me.

It would've been better still, if I could've enjoyed this with her.

But that is not to be. There is another man. It's complicated. I'm not happy about it. He's a married man. Well, "was" a married man. He...
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Wow! This is intense! And it was only two hits! And I'm only 4 and a half hours in! Jesus! Trying to write this actually hurts way worse than it should. Gawd, that's so weird! I spent so much of the last couple of hours on the floor laughing. Now I'm huddled and bawling like a baby. Fuck me! This is intense!

...on Sunday. Met for coffee and sat out in the unseasonably awesome weather in Colorado. We talked for a couple of hours. It was good.

I laid out as many of my cards as I could manage. I missed a few. But I become incredibly distracted when I'm around her. Not surprising, really.

She listened.

She accepted the emotional bomb I dropped on her. She...
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So, I decided to stop by her work today and surprise her. It's been just over 6 weeks, if I recall, since I reached out to her. After some thought, I decided that I did not need her to be fully and perfectly prepared to see me. She had said that she wanted to be "as safe/open/vulnerable as [I] deserve" when she saw me...
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I've not written at length about anything not work-related in just over 22 months. It has been 22 months since she exiled me from her world. 22 months since I burned a lifetime's worth of journals; deleted, letter-by-letter, 12 years' worth of blogs. It has been 22 months since I manually destroyed every deeply personal written account that revealed my inner self, every poem, every...
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So, looks like I'll be moving soon. Renting a house from an absolutely gorgeous young woman. Damn shame I can't cross that ethical boundary. I'd totally love to spend some time in her bed, or with her in mine. C'est la vie. At least it's a step up from this apartment... Now where's that mead I was drinking.

Finally became a member! I've had the coffee table book for a few months. Such amazingly beautiful women! It's quite the conversation piece.