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Finally got the rest of my SF physical labs done. Last time I thought I was done, it turned out I needed chest x-rays, EKG, dental...and it took a month to finally get to do it. It's hard getting to the hospital when you need to get a ride in 2 armored gun trucks with 10 guys. But now it's done. Just a few more...
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Now I REALLY doubt much of anybody will be reading these, but that's fine. I cleaned up my friend list by removing about 80%. It was brought to my attention gradually and by various factors that my list was flawed. First I thought randomly socializing with a bunch of people on a social network would be new, exciting and rewarding, which it was at first....
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Well...Happy New Year, everybody!
I wish us all a fresh, new start this year. I know I'm going to be trying to overhaul my life. 2007 was a disaster, and at least now I can use past tense. Now I just need to keep up momentum to ensure that I keep moving forward and making progress. Granted, I'll still be in Baghdad until April, but...
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Well....this is getting rough. I'm having a really hard time taking myself seriously typing on a fucking blog no one will ever read, but it replaces my little booklet, so whatever. Not like I actually have shit to say.
If these withdrawal symptoms from my fucking meds finally subside, I'll probably just stay off the shit. I'm pretty fucking sick of this. Week 3 and...
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The situation is getting out of control. I'm lashing out in all directions and I think I'm actually getting scared of myself again. If this doesn't stop, I'll be losing the few good relations I have and causing even more damage to the many fragile ones. I can't let any of that happen. If I keep snapping at all these worthless army officers and senior...
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Well, I have more or less officially stopped taking my meds. I had intended to ween myself off of them, but accidentally cut myself off for a week and decided to just stick with it. Unfortunately I am feeling the difference. I've already snapped at my superiors for shit that pissed me off twice within a week. I'll have to be careful. I'm hoping it's...
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I received my EoTech 557 SOCOM spec holographic weapon sight with 3x magnifier in the mail the other day. Was super stoked, until I actually got to use it today. Now I'm MONDO, super stoked. I zeroed it perfectly to my weapon and went on a couple night patrol. The night vision compatability is beyond expectations, and being able to reach out at 3x magnification...
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Time seems to have slowed down all of a sudden. I think it's because I find myself looking forward to returning to the states for the first time on this deployment. For 10 months now I could give a fuck about whether I was here or back in NC. It really didn't seem like there was anything significant to look forward to. it's funny how...
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Not much to report. Mainly, I'm just feeling incredibly happy. That is very rare.

Well, I ended up making my mind up and going for it. I signed my reenlistment contract on Tuesday. Even though I had approached the subject from every angle, it still felt scary to be signing away years of my life to the army again. It almost felt like I was betraying myself, I had told myself I wasn't going to do it for so...
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