I don't feel right. I'm rocking back and forth... stimming again. Looking for something to do, something to watch, something to play, fucking anything. But lately nothing feels right. I don't know what I feel. I just feel wrong. Writing it out sometimes helps. So I figured I'd do that here. I can't pinpoint when it started. I just need... something, I don't know. But whatever it is it isn't here. I don't have anyone to turn to who might understand. I don't even understand.
I need people in my life. You all are great, don't get me wrong. But I think I need that physical presence. But I've got nobody. Why is everybody that I care about so fucking far away?
I was right. This helped. I'm having a little meltdown. I guess I just missed the signs.
