wolfwood1203

@oldernow @babel @shalil

I just want to say thank you for your kind words. I'm finally at a point where looking at my profile picture doesn't bring tears to my eyes, so that's a start. I'm just grateful that my little old man cared enough that he wanted to say goodbye, and that he didn't want me to see him go. I took him to...
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I fully intended on taking my little man to the vet as soon as they opened this morning. Still about 3 hours from now, not that it matters. My amazing cat climbed up onto the bed one last time about 2 hours ago. I sat with him for a while, until he suddenly jumped up and wanted down. I carefully put him on the floor,...
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I'm pretty sure my cat is dying. He hasn't been eating, and earlier he was walking in a daze, mouth agape, eyes glazed over, and he was, and still is, breathing in a very labored way. But he came back. He's lucid again, he meowed at me a couple times. But I know he must be in pain. I can't take him to the vet...
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Feel like I should be writing... I'm getting better. More writing has been done lately than has been done in a long time. Still slow going though.

Kind of just screaming into the void with these now. I've apparently worn out my welcome with people... in general. So, no one much responds to anything these days. Online, on phone... in person...

But it is oddly...
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I had been talking to this woman I met on reddit. It was a penpals subreddit, so I wasn't looking for anything more than a friend. And it began innocently enough, we just talked about whatever random shit we felt like. Went on that way for a few months before she started getting flirty. I'm bad at that kind of thing, so it took a...
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How the fuck does my own character make me sad? This happened yesterday. I'm working on a new story, and my main character is giving back story. And suddenly, she says something that hits kind of hard, and I get sad and have to stop writing. The worst part is, I didn't see it coming. How the hell does that even happen?

Side note, still...
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Well... I'm still alive. I guess that's a start after last time. The highs and lows, or maybe the lows and lowers, of depression are fun.

Do I have anything new to report? Not really. The nephews and nieces are back in school (in person instead of online). This means I get a lot of requests for help with homework again. I'm an English major,...
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Hmm... never sure what to say. I've been lurking again. Anxiety and depression are getting to me. Last night was a particularly bad night for me. Bad enough that I'm starting to think that keeping knives in my room is a bad idea. Thank god for xanax. I don't know what to do anymore. I need to get out of my head, I think it...
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That was an interesting experience. So, a while back, I found out that Within Temptation was going to be having a concert 'in vr'. I'll admit, I'm a little reluctant to post this as I've gotten a surprising amount of crap for being a fan... but fuck it, I love this band. They're probably my favorite band at this point. So, I was excited to...
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Why do I keep doing this to myself? I got an Oculus Quest 2 a while ago (quarantine purchase). And, for some unknown reason, I keep going back to the damn shark videos. If you read this stuff, you might remember a blog a little while ago about my fear of the ocean. So why then, do I keep subjecting myself to the underwater, freaking...
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That's right ladies and gentlemen (like any guys actually read this)! It's that time again! I'm trying to get some writing done, so naturally, I'm doing anything I can to put it off. Having reddit on the same computer I write on is a terrible idea...

Although on the subject of reddit, I kind of need to get back on there and respond to some...
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Fuck! I'm old. My nephew turned 18 today. I remember meeting the little jerk when he was only 3, now he's 18. Wtf? And what was his meal of choice? Popeyes chicken sandwiches, of course. Not sure why, but that boy is obsessed with the damn things. Good god... the little one, the youngest, turns 12 tomorrow. I always thought it was just a cliché,...
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