I'm not good at titles.
Well, for the first time in I don't know how many years, I have changed pant sizes. I just switched from a size 40 waist, to a size 36. It's a little tighter than I'd like, but it fits. How cool is that shit? I mean, realistically, the perfect fit is in-between the 36 and the 38, but they don't...
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So, I'm currently cat sitting for my brother and the kids. They went to Vegas for the week to go to that festival that's happening. And I'm in charge of keeping their cat alive. I think the little orange monster must miss them a lot already, because she's been sitting with me all day. Including sitting on my head this morning. At least she's been...
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I mean, other than thank you, obviously. I seriously don't know what I did to deserve this, but you guys are amazing. @cerebus666 @fredhincanada @jadestone Thank you so much. It really means a lot to me that you cared enough to help me out like you did. And it looks like I'll be around for another year after all. I guess that means I'll have...
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Oh nice, now there's a countdown at the top of the page to remind me in out of here in 4 days. Subtlety is not their strong suit it would seem. @fredhincanada, @cerebus666 and to any others who comment a lot, thanks for making this place so cool. To those of you who just read these blogs of mine, I appreciate you too. It's not...
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I just got an email from the site reminding me that I'm down to my last two weeks. I'm going to miss you all. It has it's good and downs, like anything else, but I love it here.
Alright, a bit of context first. So, I'm a Mexican American living in a border city. I grew up in the US, and have never been to Mexico. Which means, I don't speak any Spanish. This makes people here angry. Which in turn, made me refuse to learn. I've pushed away my people's culture because border city Mexicans are very different from actual Mexicans. I...
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Thanks to the wonders of Xanax, tonight I went to the movies for the first time in 4 years. The last movie I went to see was Joker, pre-pandemic. I nearly got up and ran out of the theater for that one. Anxiety is fun that way.
But I had to try again, because I've always been a big fan of the Evil Dead series....
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But goddamn it, why do people react the way that they do?
Okay, so if you read my blogs, you might remember that I strongly suspected that I am an undiagnosed autistic. I've taken a few tests on embrace autism: the Autism Quotient, the RAADS-R, and the CAT-Q. Based on the results, I no longer suspect. Now I know that I'm an undiagnosed autistic. Yes,...
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I really hate the way that I am. I'm in the middle of an... anxiety attack? some other kind of mental breakdown? I don't fucking know what to call it. I'm not well at the moment. I'm rocking back and forth and wringing my hands together so much they're turning red. I just can't function. I need help, I need to talk to someone. But...
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Damn. Looks like I'm on my last month here. Can't afford to stick around, and no idea when I'll have the money to rejoin. But I suppose it had to end sooner or later.
Alright, so, I started thinking about this about… 5 or 6 hours ago. Tonight was my first trip back into the 'wild' since before the pandemic. I've avoided large crowds for a good three years now. So, of course, my anxiety was in overdrive. It's a familiar feeling really. But at the same time, it's not a feeling that's easy to describe. My body starts...
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I'm not allowed to get sick anymore. I've been dealing with a particularly nasty cold over the last week. I survived, and no, it wasn't covid. But it was bad enough that my family wouldn't let me cook. Which in turn meant fast food all week. These people are hopeless...