Cat...

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So, I'm currently cat sitting for my brother and the kids. They went to Vegas for the week to go to that festival that's happening. And I'm in charge of keeping their cat alive. I think the little orange monster must miss them a lot already, because she's been sitting with me all day. Including sitting on my head this morning. At least she's been...
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wolfwood1203:
@cerebus666 it was nice, but I'm sure she's happy to have them back now
cerebus666:
I'm sure that she liked her time with you @wolfwood1203 😃!

I really don't know what to say...

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I mean, other than thank you, obviously. I seriously don't know what I did to deserve this, but you guys are amazing. @cerebus666 @fredhincanada @jadestone Thank you so much. It really means a lot to me that you cared enough to help me out like you did. And it looks like I'll be around for another year after all. I guess that means I'll have...
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jadestone:
🥰🥰 im happy to have helped. but really it was all @fredhincanada and @cerebus666 i was just this middle woman down to help for a good cause. i hope you enjoy your time here
cerebus666:
@jadestone Sometimes even men need a helping hand 😁😅😂!

4 days

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Oh nice, now there's a countdown at the top of the page to remind me in out of here in 4 days. Subtlety is not their strong suit it would seem. @fredhincanada, @cerebus666 and to any others who comment a lot, thanks for making this place so cool. To those of you who just read these blogs of mine, I appreciate you too. It's not...
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cerebus666:
Many talk about "the community has to stay together and for each other" but we don't just talk - were doing it @wolfwood1203! In our opinion you're a good man 👍 that needed our help, so we're helping you 😃!
fredhincanada:
👆🏻what @cerebus666 said. Obviously, you have value to me, him, and @jadestone. We see you and appreciate you and we had the means to prove it. We look forward to your continued presence here and we look out for our friends when we can. Much love, my friend.

Well that's depressing.

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I just got an email from the site reminding me that I'm down to my last two weeks. I'm going to miss you all. It has it's good and downs, like anything else, but I love it here.

fredhincanada:
That’s depressing to me, too, my friend.
cerebus666:
We will miss you!

Cooking

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Alright, a bit of context first. So, I'm a Mexican American living in a border city. I grew up in the US, and have never been to Mexico. Which means, I don't speak any Spanish. This makes people here angry. Which in turn, made me refuse to learn. I've pushed away my people's culture because border city Mexicans are very different from actual Mexicans. I...
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crystalparadis:
Nice post! Im hungry now…
wolfwood1203:
@fredhincanada @crystalparadis  Lol, I'm glad you enjoyed the post. And that it was good enough to make you hungry.

Movie.

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Thanks to the wonders of Xanax, tonight I went to the movies for the first time in 4 years. The last movie I went to see was Joker, pre-pandemic. I nearly got up and ran out of the theater for that one. Anxiety is fun that way.

But I had to try again, because I've always been a big fan of the Evil Dead series....
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wolfwood1203:
@headshot @bookcouple @fredhincanada Thanks. I guess I didn't really think about it like that. But I guess it's a good step, getting out to the theater. Even if I did have to take a Xanax...
wolfwood1203:
@narublu It was pretty good. A bit gory, so not for the squeamish, but I enjoyed it. I definitely prefer watching at home though.

I know they mean well...

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But goddamn it, why do people react the way that they do?

Okay, so if you read my blogs, you might remember that I strongly suspected that I am an undiagnosed autistic. I've taken a few tests on embrace autism: the Autism Quotient, the RAADS-R, and the CAT-Q. Based on the results, I no longer suspect. Now I know that I'm an undiagnosed autistic. Yes,...
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samihain:
Self diagnosis is valid, it's very hard to get diagnosed and it took a lot of research and stress before I found someone who could diagnose me (at the age of 35). Don't worry about what others say, most of the time they mean well and are just uninformed. I usually use that as an opportunity to educate them. Late diagnosed autistics often have trouble unmasking, myself included, so try to be patient and understanding of yourself. 😊
wolfwood1203:
@samihain I wondered why there was such a pushback against autism, until I learned that it's a fairly new diagnosis (the first case diagnosed was about 80-90 years ago). I'm still trying to figure a lot of stuff out, so I'm not too mad at family and friends reacting that way. Anyway, thank you for that, your reassurances, I mean. It's helpful to hear someone who knows what I'm feeling tell me that it's valid. I'll do my best to be patient with myself.

Saturday

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I really hate the way that I am. I'm in the middle of an... anxiety attack? some other kind of mental breakdown? I don't fucking know what to call it. I'm not well at the moment. I'm rocking back and forth and wringing my hands together so much they're turning red. I just can't function. I need help, I need to talk to someone. But...
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wolfwood1203:
@fredhincanada @cerebus666 Thanks, I appreciate it. Yesterday was just a bad day I guess.
fredhincanada:
We all have bad days, for sure.  But we're here.  Reach out to us, my friend.  At least we can let you vent against us.

Almost out of time.

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Damn. Looks like I'm on my last month here. Can't afford to stick around, and no idea when I'll have the money to rejoin. But I suppose it had to end sooner or later.

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wolfwood1203:
@ali @nerestorm no idea when I'll be able to come back, unfortunately.
wolfwood1203:
@fredhincanada Sadly, I have to. My broke ass can't afford it.

Concert time!

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Alright, so, I started thinking about this about… 5 or 6 hours ago. Tonight was my first trip back into the 'wild' since before the pandemic. I've avoided large crowds for a good three years now. So, of course, my anxiety was in overdrive. It's a familiar feeling really. But at the same time, it's not a feeling that's easy to describe. My body starts...
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wolfwood1203:
@cerebus666 My back begs to differ... 😂
cerebus666:
Ignore it @wolfwood1203 😁😂!

It lives

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I'm not allowed to get sick anymore. I've been dealing with a particularly nasty cold over the last week. I survived, and no, it wasn't covid. But it was bad enough that my family wouldn't let me cook. Which in turn meant fast food all week. These people are hopeless...

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cerebus666:
Hope you're well now 👍💪 and can stop eating only fast food 😃😃!
wolfwood1203:
@cerebus666 Yeah, thanks, I'm doing a lot better now. And I got to cook some sesame ginger chicken and white rice for dinner, so it's all good.

Anyone?

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Anyone care for a blueberry muffin? Fresh out of the oven. I got bored, we had blueberries, the rest is obvious.

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unita:
oh yes i want to try🤤🤤
wolfwood1203:
@unita And I'd be more than happy to make them for you.
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