I am so full of anger. I keep berating myself for getting frustrated over trivial matters, but nonetheless I fall back into the same coping strategies.
So, rather than deal with the consequences of my anal attitude, I just left work early today. Make some hot chocolate, pick a book to read, and relax for the rest of the day. Either that or quit my job.
I think my greatest frustration is having a vague notion of the person I wanna be, and the discord that resonates within when I realize who I actually am.
ideal:
honest
reliable
kind
happy
diverse interests
curious
sincere
reality:
petty
lack commitment
no ambition
disdainful
lonely
apathetic
whiner
whatever