Being a self proclaimed loner is a hard habit to break. I always tell myself that I love being alone and I that I don't need anyone. Easy enough... Friends are great to have around, but the girl department is seriously lacking. But I'm okay with that, at least usually I am. But sometimes I wish I had a girl around, maybe even a girlfriend... I don't know. I'm not the most outgoing person and very seldom do I even meet women who are interested, and when I do, I push them away. I don't really know why... It's always something. I seem to set these really high standards that very few women can even come close to meeting. I think I do it subconciously because I'm afraid. I don't know. And I think it's really close minded and stupid to base my attraction to a girl on appearance, but I can't fucking help it! Is that wrong? Is it wrong not to want to go out with somebody because their physical attributes don't meet my standards? I just can't get past it... if I can't look at a women and think... Damn, I wanna fuck you... Then what's the point?! We might as well be just friends... Right?! Someone tell me I am wrong... or right, or something. I feel like an asshole.
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xtx:
I think I'll just chime in at this point and say there's nothing at all wrong with attraction to another person based on their appearance. When you get to know someone (which in my case, as in yours, is quite rare if ever, it seems) it can either enhance or repel this attraction, as the case may be- but I would imagine things must begin after that 'spark' of attraction.
veganvixen:
i think it's time for an update young man