Hurray! Just got tickets to see the Shins at the Blackbird on Wed.! Super excited! Any other Portland kids going? It's the last week of the Blackbird before they close! 
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Ever since I complained about no one being around anymore, it seems as if everyone came back!! That makes me happy. Although, I am still gonna cancel my SG account at the end of September, because I will be in school... I can't get distracted by boobies! Well... maybe I could take a study break once in a while... 
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veganvixen:
hey there cuite patutie. you can't leave SG land Have fun at the party.
Have fun at the party.
prnkstrss:
well, I'll be visiting PDX within the next month before the end of September...maybe we can toss a few pints down...I'll be meeting all kinds of folks there...so hopefully you won't be a wallflower.
Okay, people, I have changed my user name to Haydn. Alas, I am no longer wildchild. So, if you see Haydn on your friends list and don't know who the hell it is, not to worry... I hope everybody is having a good week. I seem to be seeing less and less of the old crew around here- Kludog, Vandalizm, Desirecomplex... Simon... Where the hell...
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prnkstrss:
I'm back, hey oh!
ltrain:
miss haydn, the fine maiden....
hey nothing wrong with change, i think change is good but it sounds like you get bored to easily. as long as you're happy with your new name in real life or fantasy that's all that matters. but ummm i can't bare to call you anything else, i'm stubborn sometimes and i have to stick to what i know you as, i'm sorry. but i do like haydn, honest, its perdy!
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hey nothing wrong with change, i think change is good but it sounds like you get bored to easily. as long as you're happy with your new name in real life or fantasy that's all that matters. but ummm i can't bare to call you anything else, i'm stubborn sometimes and i have to stick to what i know you as, i'm sorry. but i do like haydn, honest, its perdy!
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Isn't it strange how you can introduce your friends to other friends of yours and they all seem to connect with each other better than they connected with you in the first place? Kinda makes you feel like a shmuck. I hate that feeling, being surrounded by a group of friends and still feeling totally alone. It's what I like to call an invisible complex....
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theonetheonlydc:
Shy is a curse, I hate it
hippomonki:
If I were a guy i would have written that same thing but being a girl I did not.
I am in between being shy and outgoing at the moment, i can't seem to find the balance, but i wish you good luck finding a remedy for your curse...
I am in between being shy and outgoing at the moment, i can't seem to find the balance, but i wish you good luck finding a remedy for your curse...
Being a self proclaimed loner is a hard habit to break. I always tell myself that I love being alone and I that I don't need anyone. Easy enough... Friends are great to have around, but the girl department is seriously lacking. But I'm okay with that, at least usually I am. But sometimes I wish I had a girl around, maybe even a girlfriend......
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xtx:
I think I'll just chime in at this point and say there's nothing at all wrong with attraction to another person based on their appearance. When you get to know someone (which in my case, as in yours, is quite rare if ever, it seems) it can either enhance or repel this attraction, as the case may be- but I would imagine things must begin after that 'spark' of attraction.
veganvixen:
i think it's time for an update young man
Feeling better ... thanks everybody for putting up with me being a depressing shmuck over the last couple of days. 
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veganvixen:
i get a kiss too, sweet! here's one for you. >KISS<
kludog:
well put.
Right now I feel really depressed. It comes and goes, but as for now, it is here. It's like this murky pool that consumes me, pulls me down into its depths and I can't get out. It's dark down here, and lonely and cold. I can't see the surface, or where it begins or ends. I can't see a way out... There's nothing but darkness...
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kludog:
hey there supergirl, check your email, i think you have a suprise from a european female, named ltrain. we both send hugs to you XXXXXX - big x = bear hugs.
XXXXXX - big x = bear hugs.
Missing the 415...
Sometimes I really think Portland is a dead end town. For me anyway. Sometimes I question my santiy... but that's another story. I often wonder why I moved here in the first place. I thought I was so misserable in San Francisco. I just wanted out. I just wanted to go someplace... anywhere. Now, I realize what a dumb fuck I was....
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Sometimes I really think Portland is a dead end town. For me anyway. Sometimes I question my santiy... but that's another story. I often wonder why I moved here in the first place. I thought I was so misserable in San Francisco. I just wanted out. I just wanted to go someplace... anywhere. Now, I realize what a dumb fuck I was....
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kludog:
being broke sucks hardcore, just got back from a deployment, which meant i Had a lot of money saved up, but of course , things seem to happen to deplinsh those funds. everything seems to cost twice as much as it should, my insurance went up, car payment is a bit higher on my truck, so i totally understand that, i should have fundage when i return from korea. i am puttin in an extension so i dont have to report untill October, so , hopefully i will be able to see ltrain and possible head to the pac nw. i hope she comes home soon
i hope she comes home soon 
5alvani:
... what is this i read??... you are wildchild!!!.. make your own damn fun!! 
My friend Corey said she has a "timeless look". My friend Brent said there's just something about her. And it is true, there is just something about her. The way she smiles, the way her cheeks dimple, the way she smells... "A side of sourdough toast" I announced, placing the plate in front of her. She looked up and smiled and my stomach hit the...
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psmith:
I'm just some dork who found one of your comments in the Nofriends group.
ltrain:
psst, ok i'm here!!! thought i'd drop in and say waddup??? gotta keep my american slang going before i turn into some euro girl!!! wow!!! i felt like that maybe once about a girl. is that a true story or fiction??? if it is true, sucks when you want the one you can't have. seems to be the story of my life. well keep your hands clean and the dishes dirty. i gotta go, my beer awaits me, babble babble...
I read a lot of journals that always talk about girlfriend problems or boyfriend problems. I never have those problems because I never have a girlfriend. Never. It's been years. Sometimes, I just get really lonely, you know? I never meet girls, or even get approached by them. I don't understand why. Yeah, I'm kinda shy, but shit. I think I'm an interesting, cool person....
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kludog:
Hey there!
i totally understand what you are talkin bout. You are a very attractive and intersting person. i dont understand chicaz, if i was a chica i would totally be all over you. i have been the 'third wheel' most of my life. well if the chicas arent kissin you they are totally missin out. that isnt pathetic on your part. it is more pathetic that girls arent kissin you. maybe ppl that notice you are shy too. i totally have been in your situation alot. you totally need to go out with ltrain sometime, she is like a social fuckin butterfly, she gotz mad game. dont be lonely, you always have us here in sgland. i think that you should take a weekend and go to olympia, that is the cool place. i think that the ladies of portland arent cool now since they arent hookin you up. the time of day is 905pm. i dont think you are feelin sorry for yourself. it sounds like you are just tryin to figure out the datin situation. why couldnt i be a chica? ugh
anyway, your pics are soooo cute
i totally understand what you are talkin bout. You are a very attractive and intersting person. i dont understand chicaz, if i was a chica i would totally be all over you. i have been the 'third wheel' most of my life. well if the chicas arent kissin you they are totally missin out. that isnt pathetic on your part. it is more pathetic that girls arent kissin you. maybe ppl that notice you are shy too. i totally have been in your situation alot. you totally need to go out with ltrain sometime, she is like a social fuckin butterfly, she gotz mad game. dont be lonely, you always have us here in sgland. i think that you should take a weekend and go to olympia, that is the cool place. i think that the ladies of portland arent cool now since they arent hookin you up. the time of day is 905pm. i dont think you are feelin sorry for yourself. it sounds like you are just tryin to figure out the datin situation. why couldnt i be a chica? ugh
anyway, your pics are soooo cute
shelliepooh:
awww hey i know exactly how it is. ive had a shitload of bfs when all i really wanted was a sweet beautiful chick to be the one buying me flowers, taking me to dinner, and calling me 24-7 to just say hi. girls never ever ever aproach me, its so sad. only once when i was 16 was there a chick all into my shit, but it didnt work out...she was obnoxious ....lol.i must say i did meet a really amazing girl through the site but its not possible to make her mine. the way things have been going with my boyfriend lately im ready to call it quits, theres only so many times u can cry over somebody, but we'll see what happenes. dont worry ur attractive and from what ive read in ur journal u have a great personality, u will find ur juliet in no time.
All my financial stuff is finally worked out. Finally! I hate stressing about money. It makes me wanna drink... Today is my Friday, and I plan to have a relaxing chill weekend. It's about damn time too! What am I gonna do? Well, who knows... okay, so I have a crush on a girl from SG. She's not a Suicide Girl... although I have a...
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kludog:
wow a new new profile pic, yay!!!!
your pics are awesome!!!
yeah, i was thinkin of seein t3 this weekend, but i am glad you told me not to waste the money or time.
how is the weekend going? hope all is goin well in portland, hey trinity said she wants to take you home hehe. check her out if you havent she is rad!!!
your pics are awesome!!!
yeah, i was thinkin of seein t3 this weekend, but i am glad you told me not to waste the money or time.
how is the weekend going? hope all is goin well in portland,
hey trinity said she wants to take you home hehe. check her out if you havent she is rad!!! 
veruscavandalizm:
I love your "don't know what I'm looking for" pic. Your arm is beautiful, it is THEE shit! Ohhh 
I need to solve my own money problems, so I can get money for more tattoos.
I need to solve my own money problems, so I can get money for more tattoos.
Today sucked because I am short about a hundred bucks in my checking account. I got over charged for something, and then looked at my balance and found out that there are some other transactions that I know nothing about! What the fuck is going on?! I was already broke this month, and now I am beyond broke. I hate money. It stresses me out....
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kludog:
have you done an account inquiry? alot of banks charge like a dollar, but it may lead to where the money went. i had an atm take money out of my account when it never gave me the money. a lot of banks will work with you on things like that. well have a good night, sleep well for tomorrow will be better, ok. when is your payday? mine is tomorrow. so i am your current crush? ya know i just got the rubber band thing hehehe
veruscavandalizm:
Fuck money, money is the root of all lust, or something like that. Money is nolonger a part of my life since I quit my job, money don't luv me no mo.
Seriously, I suggest calling your bank and lying, but in your case you could probably tell the truth.
I talked myself down from like a $200 overdraft to like $15 dollars, no shit. You'd be suprised how far over-the-phone intimidation can get you. Good Luck
Seriously, I suggest calling your bank and lying, but in your case you could probably tell the truth.
I talked myself down from like a $200 overdraft to like $15 dollars, no shit. You'd be suprised how far over-the-phone intimidation can get you. Good Luck
I'm new in town... i think i musta cliked on your profile instead of your group...no friends.....cause you know....
anyway the shins record is excellent & as an Australian i think all in the Portland area should go & see them.
Save live venues before gentrification ruins the world!
Yeah...well...thats my 2c..... I'm heading back to join your group so hey...later