fuck. i'm entirely pissed off tonight. ended up picking miles up from the college and drove up to lenny's. lenny's wanted to charge me $5 for free pool and even more for drinks. we decided it wasn't worth it because miles is being a tool about going to bed early on a thursday night. stupid employed friends that take real classes. we ended up playing a couple of games of pool that sucked down at the highlander, the only place i could think of that had coin pool tables. what a miserable $1.50; my game was completely off tonight. perhaps it was the two women in the frilly white shirts playing games with everyone in the room. perhaps it was the psychotic blast from the past that dropped me a line tonight just to mess with my brain. or perhaps i'm just fed up with putting myself out there and being completely ignored, in terms of job opportunities, friendships, and of course, women. it gets to me after a while. sam ended up at rocky mountain, but he couldn't tell me that. amelia had to say that through his cell phone. that kind of brushed me the wrong way, but it's ok. everyone has their own agenda, i suppose. chris was right next door at apres diem, but was too cool to come down and join us poolside. there is no justice in alan-land. i'm completely exhausted with life right now. time to drink myself stupid and pass out. 