wild_zero

wow. well over three months since i've had anything to say. i've been working ridiculous, and haven't been able to go out as much. today, i worked a 14 hour day. it's quite alright, though. i'm trying to accelerate when i get the raise i was promised when i was first brought on about five months ago. once that happens, it should be back to...
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shamanism.

fish is not the same. missing. wondering. i'm insane.

sometimes, i'm there in my bed at night, and can't get to sleep. i'm thinking about anything in particular. it's more like i'm in this exercise that i like to do where i try and detach myself from my body. sometimes, i can see myself lying there, fast asleep, snoring like a fool (i snore terribly, i'm told - no, i've experienced mornings where i...
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gentlefolk:

please disregard last post. i'm a retarded person.

love,
me

argh. i wanted to hang out with some of my friends tonight but they totally punked out on me. barf. and weak.

sorry gentlefolk - seriously, i just don't like being left stranded in the middle of cleremont lounge on tuesday with nowhere else to go but el myr with a group of friends who also got laid off this week and we were just...
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gentlefolk:

i have been axed. my final day at work is the 23rd of this month. it's an interesting experience, on several levels. for one, this dismissal is different from the former since i'm being terminated due to market forces in the deregulated subprime mortgage industry, where suddenly, the investors purchasing aggregate pools of loans made out to people with poor credit suddenly realized they...
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ended up distraught, half-awake. i went to an art show. my friend makes amazing renditions of people that all exude this marionette quality, something i can understand and see in others. lithe, sad, and longing bodies for that one moment where we actually feel alive. nothing else compares to that summary of the self. we can't all focus pain onto a medium - most are...
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"valentine's day sucks"

when i woke up this morning, there was this loud alarm that was of no importance telling me it was 9:30, which i promptly ignored for the next hour and a half while i lay in bed, half-awake, half-dreaming. the dream concerned itself with various past lovers, who manifested themselves as strange symbols emerging from a fog as i wandered aimlessly through...
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this poem is one of my favorites. i hope you enjoy it as much as i do,
since it seems very appropriate given my current situation in life:


somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will...
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