wild_zero

do you ever feel like the decision to choose to be alive is constantly being taxed on you? as if, no, you don't really have this nebulous cloud of freedom in front of you - no, you need to sit down and shut up and put up. that way, you don't even get a chance to even taste what it's like to be free.

fuck those idiots in DC that write laws to limit our freedoms. laws only have life when they are enforced upon the people, rudely and quietly and incessantly. no, it's the price we pay to simply live, have friends, stay in touch, and destroy all robots. it's that little toll on life we pay everyday, just to feel like we fit in - just to fit in at all, even if it's messed up or completely mainstream.

i want to write off the next few days. i don't want to do anything. i just want to exist - live away from it all, for a short period of time. all i get are little drops scattered here and there - when what i really want is to plunge into that ocean and forget about everything else for a good long while.

life is too demanding. how do you abstract it away? simplify it? quash it? let it go?

just carrots and grapes. magma and marmalade. why don't they call, god-damnit? i'm tired of wasting away so somebody else can have the freedom. i want it for myself and i want to be left alone to enjoy it. life likes to fight tooth and nail every state of the way...as if, without random shit, suffering, and feeling perpetually starved and stagnant - one cannot exist.

too tired for one day. i'm through. i need to sleep it off and sleep it in. good night party people.