whitewidow

OK guys.........

Thats it - no more "melodramatic" journals. I can't do that to you anymore......and I don't like posting them anyways

I guess I just got into a bad frame of mind after losing 3 people in my life within such a short period of time. Being away from Pete is really starting to take its toll on me too. Top that off with some "hormonal" issues and you just have me feeling sorry for myself and I shouldn't be this way I'm not going to lie about this though........we thought I was pregnant and after a false positive result I got my hopes up too early. I'm not...........I'm almost 100% certain of this now Maybe it just wasn't meant to be.........or maybe just not now.

Life is going to get better soon and I know this. I am just a very impatient person who doesn't like to have to wait Oh well - perhaps this is lifes way of telling me that I need to slow down a little and just stop to enjoy life. I'll be the first to admit that I sometimes take life for granted and I am one who really shouldn't.........especially since there will always be the issue of a possible kidney failure in my future

So today I take a first step in a new direction and go on a journey to find a piece of happiness that I can call my own Thats it.......thats all I can do

In the words of a wise man.........



"If the winds of fortune are temporarily blowing against you, remember that you can harness them and make them carry you toward your definite purpose, through the use of your imagination."