I don't believe in long distance/internet relationships.
When I first came to California, I met my first Catfish? (I guess that's what you can call it). I was really young, like 16. One of my very first friends (let's call her Brody) was in band class with me when I started the 10th grade. After a few months of getting to know Brody, she told me she had this cousin named Cody that I should meet. I told her I was down to meet him, however because of his job, he traveled a lot and the only way to meet him was through instant messenger.
Long story short, I fell in love with the guy. He wrote a song about me called "Cloud 9" , wrote poems, sent me self made art through the mail, and we would stay up late at night talking about running away together and listening to old bands like 'Bread'. He was in a band that consisted of his three cousins whom traveled with him (all guys). He had a niece and nephew that he kind of adopted, and they were barely the ages of 4 and 5 (if I remember) and they would draw cute pictures of me and Cody together. Being the silly teen in love, I truly believed it all.
It wasn't till a friend of mine (lets call him Edmund) grew feelings for me, and he was in marching band with Brody. He had such a thing for me, that he lied about confronting Brody's mom about who Cody was and said that her mom didn't know who Cody was. Then shit got super real, as he told me that Brody was the one pretending to be Cody all along. Heart broken, furious, confused, and most of all simply embarrassed, I cried for weeks. My friends gave her hell for breaking my heart, and for the longest time I wasn't sure why someone would do that to anybody. I quit talking to her and for the longest time I was so angry at the world and couples. Then one day, Edmund came up to me and confessed that he had lied in hopes of me actually going out with him if I forgot about Cody, but saw that it only tore me apart. I cussed Edmund out and told him of what a horrible thing that was and how hurt I truly felt. I immediately went home that day after school and tried to contact Cody after not speaking for weeks and sending an awful email to him, only to find out he sent one back saying how much he loved me and that he won't be bothering me ever again.
Any who, after a couple of years of realization, I knew it had to of been Brody all along. I never got to talk to Cody on the phone, I rarely saw pics, and a lot of the stuff he sent me I believe was spotted in Brody's possession. I had a lot of anger towards her, and I could never really look her in the eye or speak to her after that but we grew up and have become friends from afar.
I think about it now, and I am no longer angry, she really did like me and I can't hold it against her, though she didn't go about it the right way. But that's my confession. You could be in a long distance/internet relationship, but after all that, I'd rather just be up close and personal not wondering what's really going on through a computer.
