Went to my cousin's wedding. At the reception after, watching her take the first dance with her husband, staring into his eyes with pure happiness, all I could think was "damn, I'm practically the same age as you and I don't even have anybody, let alone someone that'd look at me like that".
I'm far too easily depressed by stupid things at the moment. I...
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I'm far too easily depressed by stupid things at the moment. I...
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Just wasted a night out to remember why I don't like the Furnace.
What a waste, as Ian Dury would say.
What a waste, as Ian Dury would say.
disco:
Hha why would you go there?
wesb:
Nostalgia, not been there in a year or so. God it was awful. And it's the only alt club in Swindon, so what do I do now? Can't wait to live back in Bristol!
In defiance of all probability I'm gonna make sure I at least hook up with, if not form a relationship with, a lady who has both an amazing personality, brains and looks. Been a while since I managed it. Gorgeous (single) women that aren't damaged in the head are like gold dust.
Or just faces on the internet.
I need breasts with brains. I don't...
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Or just faces on the internet.
I need breasts with brains. I don't...
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Soooooo bored.... tralalalalala......OH GOD WON'T SOMEONE GO OUT OR DO SOMETHING!!!
I need to trade my mates in for ones who actually go out and do stuff...
Bored bored bored bored...
Hear me spit, wither I
Remold into gold
And bury I......
I need to trade my mates in for ones who actually go out and do stuff...
Bored bored bored bored...
Hear me spit, wither I
Remold into gold
And bury I......
Especially as I almost coughed up my black lungs at training tonight... Arse.... 
On the plus side the mere idea of smoking now makes me feel ill.
Wooooooo that was a..... cathartic....weekend...
Got to Bristol Friday evening and spent the night in with my housemate getting nicely drunk and watching the Punisher (which isn't very good). Suddenly get many drunken texts from ex girlfriend (for that is what she now is without any doubt) feeling very sorry for herself. In a fit of gross stupidity I agree to meet her the next...
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Got to Bristol Friday evening and spent the night in with my housemate getting nicely drunk and watching the Punisher (which isn't very good). Suddenly get many drunken texts from ex girlfriend (for that is what she now is without any doubt) feeling very sorry for herself. In a fit of gross stupidity I agree to meet her the next...
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Going to drink lots tonight in the vain hope that it'll kill enough brain cells to take away a good month of my memory.
That'd be nice.
What will most likely happen though is that I get drunk, get depressed, send my ex a stupid text, then get more drunk and make a big enough fool of myself to prove the point of straight-edgers everywhere...
That'd be nice.
What will most likely happen though is that I get drunk, get depressed, send my ex a stupid text, then get more drunk and make a big enough fool of myself to prove the point of straight-edgers everywhere...
daisy:
That sounds like a great plan. 
No more excuses, I have to go back to work tomorrow.
But in the evening I get to go see Neville Staple at the Furnace (sorry Disco!!).
YAY!!
But in the evening I get to go see Neville Staple at the Furnace (sorry Disco!!).
YAY!!
disco:
Why are you apologising to me?
wesb:
I was led to believe there's some rivalry thing between you and Tim?
No?
Nevermind then...
No?
Nevermind then...
Still off work, much better to say you've got a migraine (which I do actually get) than say it's because you're too depressed to be left alone at your desk with your own thoughts for 7 and a half hours a day.
Got my exam results today, failed them all....
I would say the only way is up from here, but I think that may...
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Got my exam results today, failed them all....
I would say the only way is up from here, but I think that may...
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daisy:
Sounds rubbish now, but when you're at your lowest, something good is guaranteed to be around the corner. Just keep thinking of that. 
wesb:
Yeah, and I'd say the same thing to anyone in my position. It's just hard to see that when it's you.
Cheers though guys!!
Cheers though guys!!
Just noticed my eyes look brown in my picture.
They're blue really.
Little bloodshot right now though I think.
They're blue really.
Little bloodshot right now though I think.
Arm hurts arm hurts arm hurts arm hurts arm hurts ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow.....
[Edited on Jul 24, 2005 5:16AM]
Do I wanna get married? Hell no. Just like I said, someone that looks at me like that.
Was drunk when I wrote that, but I do still stand by it.