wakeangel

Well... Update time. It seems there have been a lot of people complaining about the direction the site has been heading. That's not why I've been so quiet around here lately. I've been doing many wonderful things since Burning Man. Mostly I've been working at developing fire spinning skills. I've been working on staff, double staff and the meteor. The meteor is a ten foot rope with fire on both ends. It's spun like poi or staff and even has some hoola hoop elements to it. A good example of the meteor is Cirque Du Soleil Varekai. The are three little Chinese kids who do meteor that are fantastic. My performance differs from theirs a bit though. I'm not nearly as good at it yet for one thing. My rope is considerably longer than theirs so tend to do more horizontal planes and rope dart type moves. My staff spinning has taken on some new elements in that I've been working on contact movements. In which I'm manipulating the staff across various body parts without touching with my hands. All in all, it's going fairly well. I had my first club performance a couple of weeks ago at Berbati's for their monthly fetish night. It was ton's 'o fun. I even did a short performance with two flaming swords! Next step will be Dante's. Ultimately I'd like to become a regular performer on Sinferno night. That will be difficult because the guy that does the booking really only wants to see naked girls. Which is fine but it's supposed to be variety show. It originally started out as a fire performance night but has just become burlesque night with a couple of fire performers thrown in. The interesting thing is there are just as many women as men in the audience. I think they'd like to see at least one more guy spinning fire, don't you? Hmmmm... The snow season is upon us! I went twice on Thanks Giving weekend. The best fist day of the season I've had yet! Very exciting stuff! Christmas is coming... blah. But I'll not be moping around crying in my citreon and soda this year. No, no, no, no... I'm going to snowboard and have lot's of fun. I'm not currently dating anyone. Met a couple of girls that I really like but I guess I still have trust issues. I'm thinking of becoming a whore, any takers?! Come on, who wants to get laid by a very attentive, somewhat damaged lover/whore?! Come on raise your hands... um... ok, never mind. Let me know if you change your mind. Oh shit I have to go to work. Ok, bye, bye now.

M

One other thing. Why do have dreams about my ex all the time? Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Anyone here any good at dream interpretation? I'd like to know what it means. I'm trying to let go. I have given up any hope at all of ever seeing her again. I know it's over but still... The other night I had a dream that I ran into her sister and asked her if she would listen to my side of the story. To try to explain that I'm not really the bad guy. Then the ex walked into the room and started being mean.what the hell does that mean?